okay heres one for all of you first of all happy new years everybody sorry late so much is going on in my life these past three years I didnt think I can ever get out of the lowest point again once again life proof me wrong I was jailed here in Las Vegas for 32 days though it was a life learning experience and I saw where I stood in life with my family and my children it has made me realize that I had lost the woman I was being married to lorenzo leaving my dad using my kids but I need to say thank you to my son Michael and his family and my love Alan no one is ever proud to admit that they went to jail and they said the time in there I know Im not but I wrote numerous letters to my family they all went unanswered and thats my biological family as well as to my children I made many phone calls that were rejected or tonight so I had to take a step back and take a hard look at my life which Im not doing anything illegal or wrong everything happens for reason and I feel that do everything thats happened to me in life I do all I wanted was my familys encouragement and support during the slowest time in my life and I didnt get it didnt even get a letter no phone calls accepted answers: really lonely feeling what they say what doesnt kill you can only make you stronger Im leaving proof my dad left a very strong woman behind and I thought I lost ur the bean in there alone not be married anymore not having anybody at my side maybe remember who my dad left behind no not everybody my family might feel that but I do and I just lose weight he left Indy I only wish everybody else could look at themselves is hard but it is what it is what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger and it brought me back to who I was and I know that even though I know if my dad was alive he be ashamed of me cuz I was in jail but he be proud of me because of who I came out and remembered what he installed in me Im going to survive my life I wish that I could see my grandchildren and my granddaughter Lexine I miss her so my son should know that I wouldnt bad mouth him or his father to her I racer for 5 years and just put them on pedestals hopefully one day shell freak me out but I love my children unconditionally if they were to tell me they needed me tomorrow I wouldnt hold in your feelings towards them a mother doesnt do that I am Who I am because of the trial dug into my life just a note for thought dont ever be ashamed of the stars that life leaves on you because of people look at you they only see that you survived
Posted on: Mon, 03 Feb 2014 04:31:43 +0000