questioning clean and sober as I come up on 3 years... in the sense that when one is constantly in their head, aware of everything around them and everything they are doing; when theyre playing the tape forward for the worst possible outcome in every single teeny tiny situation....is that living? Or is living getting outside of your own head and doing the crazy out of control things that you would never do clear-headed yet make some excellent stories and memories? Is there a right answer? I wonder if im boring - a drag - in real life because I am too aware of my surroundings, look too much into situations and read too far between the lines and care too deeply. I dont know how to take chances, take a weekend off or let loose on a vacation and I fear that I will recess to resent myself for the clean decisions ive made. this update is a perfect example - I couldve just wrote Being clean and sober might not be such a good idea or being clean and sober is making me a stick in the mud or something witty but no....I write a book about it. FML.
Posted on: Thu, 26 Jun 2014 21:26:07 +0000
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