thinking about you a lot tonight Bub!!! Which only leaves me to believe that you are with me tonight more than usual, which I really need right now. Life hasnt been the easiest here lately, & it has been extremely hard to deal with. I forgot to write on here a couple weeks ago when I had another one of those Dreams of you & Dustin. It seemed so real. You guys was laughing, & was running around in the field throwing a ball back & forth, & it was like I was on the outside looking in. I wasnt actually apart of this dream. It lasted forever it seemed like. You guys walked to your house, & went inside & got something to drink & grabbed some Chips to eat, & then you went out front & sat on the porch & you picked your Guitar. Even though the two of you wasnt doing anything really big, or I wasnt with you or you didnt talk to me it was just good to see the two of you together & smiling, & having a good time. It gives me lots of Joy & Happiness just to know exactly what Heaven has in it, & is going to be like. One thing I know for certain I will be reunited with the two of you, my Mamaw Carver, Aunt Maggie, & all my other Close Loved ones that has passed away, & that will pass away between now & my passing. So I ask of you from the bottom of my heart, till that day comes when I will be with you guys again, can you please keep giving me them dreams, or come to me in my dreams. It seriously makes my life so much better when I have dreams like that, & I am able to have a smile on my face & happiness, even if its just for a a few hours. That feeling will never compare to any feeling I will ever have here in life on Earth, unless its when I start a Family & have my First Child. Until then nothing will compare to how Happy it makes me to be able to see loved ones who have gone to Heaven to be with Jesus, & God, & to be with loved ones who to has passed away. Everyday I miss you Bub, & I know that we wasnt always close in life, & we had our ups & downs, which is why I am extremely Grateful for you & I rekindling our Friendship the Last Few months you was alive. I will forever cherish the memories we shared as young kids being so close growing up all the way through our Infant/Toddler years, to Kindergarten, Elementary School, & Middle School & then drifting apart around 8th grade year all the way through our High School years up until the last few months you were alive. Thank you for all the Memories, & I never answered your question that you asked a couple months before you passed when we was sitting at the pond on the Picnic Table, & that question was Bro, will you please forgive me for all those times that I was rude to you, or when you & I got into it over stupid stuff, & for all those times when I made some of your Days in High School a little rough??? Just please forgive me Bro?? I never meant any of those things, I was just stupid back then. I am sorry Bro!!.....The Answer is Of course I forgive you!!!! We both did stupid things back then, & treated one another with disrespect when we shouldnt have. I never held any grudge or remorse against you because I was just as much in the wrong as you was. We wouldnt had been foolish High School Kids if we didnt pick on one another, & make each others lives miserable. You wasnt the only one that was mean or said some pretty harsh things. I said all kinds of things I regret, & I know that you wouldve & did forgive me for them. Even though I never was the bigger person like you were on this day, & I so selfishly ignored you, I know that you forgave me for all that I ever did to you, or all the hurtful things I ever said to hurt you. Because I know deep down even though you always put on the tough guy act, & didnt act like the things I said or did hurt you, I know that deep down they did, just like the things you said & did to me, hurt me. So of course I forgive you. I forgave you shortly after you did those things. I may not of actually told you I forgave you, only because I wanted to act like the tough guy. So here I am letting you know now, even though some people may think I am crazy because they are saying Ghost Cant read, or communicate!!! I know that you can see every word I type, & everything I ever say to you so here I am typing YES I FORGIVE YOU!!!! Sorry everyone for writing so much, but I am writing how I feel & choosing to believe that Derek can read every word I am typing. Until we see one another kid bro Fly High, & keep watching over of me, Your Mom Polly Ellizabeth Conner, Tyler Combs, Patrick Combs, Scottie Combs, Kayla Brooke Mccane, & the rest of the people you love. & never stop keeping my Best Friend Dustin Ivey company. I promise I will let you have a break whenever its my time to die, & come to Heaven with you guys, & the rest of my loved ones. Please take a note that when it is my time to please meet me halfway so I dont get lost, & it dont take me forever to get there. I am hoping there is at least some Arrows pointing me in the right direction, lol. R.I.P Brother until we meet again!!! Love Always Bro, Kyle Hale!!!
Posted on: Mon, 30 Jun 2014 08:32:14 +0000
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