wake up at 6 in the mornin, time to get dressed and head off to school trying to get an education and at the same dealin with a heated fool tryna put me down make me feel bad how you gonna sit there and make me sad every mornin i hope for something different, just hopin one day i can be glad to hang with my friends till the end, i gotta make sure nothin be botherin me but fake associates and enemies are making me wanna smoke on the smokable trees you can tell my life is a mess and i have deep aching pain far inside my chest i think i need a little shut eye, not death, i need to be able to take a breath i need to live for my family, death a be nearin, and it sure be scarin me i cant hold it in, the heat i release will make everyone scared of me im not tryin to hurt nobody, i just wanna sit up in a lobby continue my hobby and hope that no one pops up, pulls out a piece and robs me im not tryna copy no one, and if i freak out, someone come and please try to stop me i need some help, someone call the therapist, tell em im not arrogant say that i need assistance with my head, just please no comparison to the top psychos in the world, i dont need that hovering above my skull im trying to become happy, i need no more sadness and need no more sorrow life for me is hard to tell when youve gone thru hell and back multiple times you havent seen dark or light, so you dont know whether if you can see or if your blind if you cant decide on which path to choose, maybe its best for you to try to live like i do once you see the difference call me, see if you are ever gonna be able to help me too if you can relate, then plz dont hate, i need the help, and if required, i got ya back but if you ask me for any type of money, you know you gonna have to get me back ill support you, and you support me, just promise you wont cross me at age 40 and say that im your eternal friend, plz never let our friendship become boring i done lost too many people and things in my life that mean more than life as is and all i ask of you i never be mad at me for the future mistakes im gonna be makin i hope i have all your trust, i dont wanna toy with your brain, just wanna be there for you and have you do the same for me, and if you were able to, id ask you for a hug or two maybe we can be family as well, you and i can live life like we were rulers of the world and make more money than ever by turning in a very rare bright shining clams pearl but i highly doubt thatll happen, especially if im rappin, gettin capped in the head in a drive by shootin, and people tryna wake me up using their hands to be clappin when they see me on top the chart and massively attackin when deep inside i wanna cry cuz my mind is infested with demons that constantly bug me on the daily nonstop i hear satan whispering in my ear, telling me to do bad, but i refuse to let him change me no matter where i go, and what i do, everything always hits the reverse so i can never be me me know not of the things ive done, someone just please tie me down and try to resurrect me let the evil side die in due time, and let my state of mind become peaceful like it was once before everything that has happened to me has apparently led me to a fire surrounded hell type of door i dont wanna see my youthful soul go up in any black flames its like i myself am trying to tarnish my own given name only thing that keeps me sane anymore, is the music i try to write when i get in this state of mind and hopefully, if i get lucky, i can just write a rhyme in a pattern as i write these lyrical lines the tragic difficulty in the realm of reality i be facin is just makin me wanna lose my sight especially the fact that every corner i turn, i bump into a guy and now all of a sudden they wanna fight the sad fact about that, i know not of why such violence has to always occur in the middle of the night, below freezing, trying to see if i wanna get hurt i have the choice of stayin and goin and go is what i do instead of instigation and my style doesnt intend to copy another persons, i just cant handle this frustration what i need is a nice long shower and maybe i can regain back all my powers to live the life i wanted instead of walkin around seemin like i am a coward gotta get up out of the hole to become whole and make sure i am happy with myself try to live my life happily ever after, i myself am just worried bout my health mentally, physically, and spiritually contactin souls that have been lost and knowing theyve been around all this time in the mornin can make em frost they can freeze you at anytime they want, they can control your body and brain so they know all of your secrets and use them against you to give you more pain
Posted on: Fri, 24 Oct 2014 04:01:49 +0000
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