well im ready to get laughed at : P lol. this masters show i cant shake it. if you know me in person you will never see me flex (even when asked i have to get arm twisted to do so), brag or boast, and i usually sit back and laugh at people that do. really they deserve credit for being that confident. i actually dont like attention on me believe or not. bodybuilding (competition) is all about it. i promised myself i would do a show once before i die but im having a hard time actually seeing myself on stage in a lil speedo lol. ive been following bodybuilding for 25 years and its one of my few passions. im trying to break the ice for myself and get confidence in myself that i can do this. im my worst enemy i never think im good enough. im way to hard on myself. if i cant stand in underwear and halfway pose and take a pic, how would i get on stage more naked in front of 100s? so i dont know, but i got to break this cycle slowly? i do have someone in my corner ( Margarita Mix ) that will help push me to face my fears. having her in corner might be what i need, well see? i figure ive been working out for 20+ years be proud, see what you got. even this summer i promised i would try to commit 100% (instead of normal 60% lol) but as my other half knows (Margarita) i failed and 1 out of the 3 months i did nothing far as training and diet. but back again for last 3 weeks strong.. so this pic is really for me to just not care what people think and get myself ready for negative feed back. bodybuilding is one of the only sports that focuses off weakness and not strengths. on top sider these pics are about 60% of what i should be doing outside of gym. i still want to see what would happen if 90-100% : ) awwe i feel better, i havent used fb and my diary for about half year : P lol.. ok. go ahead and laugh now lol
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 17:04:05 +0000
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