10:30 PM....three more songs tonight, along with the revelation at 11 I have been talking about all night. And then its off to bed, although I will check in throughout the night to see if any of my efforts have worked and even for a short time, you put our hope back up, and reconnect us on here so I can friend-ize everything just for us. I thought this next song was a nice quicker one before the last two slow, emotional songs coming up. No doubt you didnt think I could keep this up all night did you? That reminds me of that conversation on a Sunday awhile back when you asked me if I could keep this up? That I had set the bar so high - could I love you each and every day of your life that much. Baby, yes, I have failed many times. I have fallen short of your expectations many times. And, once again, I am saying publically I am profoundly sorry for that. And I will spend the rest of my life making up for that. But I dont want our lives to be one long apology either. On the VERY RARE occasion you said something foul to me and quickly apologized, you told me you appreciated that I didnt keep asking for an apology. Yet, here I am, falling on my sword each and every day...again, for YOU and YOUR LOVE. Gladly, I might add, because you are worth it. Again, babe, I just have to ask and illustrate - would any of the others go to these lengths for you? Or would they have bailed by now? Of course, they got the pleasure of actually BEING there with you, so why cant I being so far away have that factored into your decision, babe? Why? You know I can only do so much from down here, but you have to admit, I am doing everything I can with what I do have, and what I dont have, I have sent up there, like the grill - that was supposed to be for OUR family - didnt you tell me to trust you on that, too?? Im sure many of my friends would tell me to bail by this point, too. But I dont care what my friends think, and I wish yours didnt either, because this is OUR life, not theirs. BUT, I am the one in love with you. I dont give a rats *** what others think. I want YOU. My life revolves, gladly, around you and your family. At least, thats what I am fighting so hard for. So baby, I dont care what others advise or want. All I care about, is you. Your happiness, your future, OUR future, to be with you again, to touch, kiss, hold, and caress you again (I SO miss that). That is why I work so hard here. That is why I make you number ONE. That I why I want to meet the high bar, and tirelessly work to put you back, not just ON the pedestal like before, but on TOP of the pedestal where you belong, and where YOU SAID you miss being without me... Again babe, you can have it back anytime you want. And all I am asking for is to see our hope? To reconnect on here? To hear your voice? To have my ONE second chance to love you???...Again, and I will never tire of saying this, I love you baby - forever and always. https://youtube/watch?v=7cRqYJfSYBk
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 03:27:27 +0000
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