15years ago on my birthday my lady came into my life. She was like an energy bomb that went off every hour of everyday, always climbing trees, hunting down birds and challenging blue tongue lizards. She was a strong lady who feared nothing. She was beautiful inside and out. She listened to me whinge about life, watched me cry and calmed me when I was mad. She was my best friend, always there when I needed a chat. We found out about 4 months ago that the tumour my lady Belle had was cancerous but because shes 15 years old, the vet couldnt promise me that shell be all better and live many more years. I accepted that and decided to let her live without any pain till it was her time. For about 3 weeks, I knew she was struggling, she was skin and bone. On the night of 20th July, she constantly barked for about 30 minutes if no one was around her to give attention. I had a really bad feeling so the next day I stayed home with her. In the morning I let her outside because I know how much she loved sun baking. She was breathing heavily, drooling, her back legs were so weak if there was a step, shed avoid it. She couldnt walk a straight line and when she fell, it was a struggle to stand back up. She followed me everywhere I went. At this point I knew it was her time. Her front legs gave in while she was walking towards me, she fell to the ground and didnt get up. So I rushed over and her breathing wasnt right. I cried out her name and patted her as she took her last breath. 21st July 2014, 12:54pm (on my fathers birthday) was honestly the most devastating day of my life. Theres not a day that I dont think about you and definitely not a night I dont cry myself to sleep. I still go outside waiting to hear your footsteps and to see your head pop out of the dark. I miss you so so much my days are not the same without you. Im still struggling to overcome your passing, I dont know what to do. For anyone whos going through the same thing as me, please help me. And for those with a sick baby, please cherish every moment you have with them.
Posted on: Fri, 01 Aug 2014 12:42:39 +0000
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