20 years is a long time. Ive felt a lot of anger & sadness over that time in regards to the passing of my mother. Luckily, those feelings have become less; while an appreciation for & a celebration of, has become greater as Ive gotten older. I was prepared for today to be difficult but in actuality it was ok. I got through the end of the work day & felt incomplete though, so I drove up the mountain to the prayer garden my moms church built many years ago in her memory. Its a beautiful & peaceful place I dont visit as often as I should. I arrived just before sunset which was perfect & took a couple quick photos. Then I sat down & reflected for a few minutes. & then I cried. I cried pretty hard for ten minutes or so & then when I thought I was done & stood up, I had to sit back down & bawl some more. Im glad Jimmy V said its good to cry in that speech so many years ago because boy did I take him up on it tonight. I post all of this for two reasons I guess. One...It felt really good. It was a great mix of love & memories & sadness & loss & it was extremely cathartic. Im pleased to announce that all of the anger Ive felt over her passing is gone. And more importantly as a tribute to her. If I can post about the record Im listening to or about trying to get people to go to a golf course - I surely can take time to honor the person I owe everything to & have to thank for everything. So thank you Mom - for all that you gave to me & all the love that you left in & for your family. I miss you, I love you.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 02:24:08 +0000
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