2014 has honestly been the best year Ive had in a very long time. Last December was when I decided I was going to change and find a reason for doing things and life in general. As Im sure some people are aware depression and mental health has been a huge struggle for me since middle school. Ive been on many medications and hospitalized and it never seemed to really get any easier, everything hurt all the time and I had to leave highschool the beginning of my senior year due to panic attacks, I was so anxious all the time, it felt like I was burning. Im still sad I was never able to graduate with my class but I think it was the best choice. After leaving life started to get better, I decided to devote my time to art, mostly because I couldnt find anything else. I had always liked drawing but since 2014 started it became more of a lifestyle. I found something to work towards and have an amazing support group as my parents and family have helped immensely. Im lucky to have the life and family that I do. Before this year I didnt think it was possible to be happy, to even be normal and not just wallow. Now the anxiety is managable and Ive been off of medication for most of the year, lifes been good. Previous years were rough but I think Ive finally found a way to work through it. I have goals, before this I never bothered planning my life out that far because I honestly didnt think Id be around to see it. Im so glad thats changed. Normally I wouldnt post something this personal, but its been a big year and Im proud to be here. I feel 2014 was worth a mention as a personal year of recovery. Finding a reason and dedicating myself to art is what did it. Ive worked hard for this, and its been a struggle but Im still here. I never ever thought Id feel this way someday. Of course nothings going to be perfect, but its better, and thats more than I expected. I hope that for everyone who is still in a bad place, that 2015 will be your year.
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 22:46:42 +0000
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