5:am morning rant.. That moment you wake and you know there is no fear, no pain, there is only stillness. In the midst of the dark and silence you find an everlasting peace. You know that this life is your last, its probably why youve wanted to die earlier at times, why you almost didnt make it at birth but you had a reason to stay and that reason was love.. Love you had to learn wasnt the controller, did not exist just because of the actions of others, did not always exist from your parents, your children or your family or friends.. Nothing you could do would make them love you forever, nothing you could do could ever make them stay... Love on earth, changes, it dies, it breaks hearts and it divides people. Yet love is what we crave, love is our desire, love is our constant.. Love is not that extreme emotion we feel that has intensity, fear, excitement.. Love is a calm that comes over you, a peace, a knowing, its a feeling of warmth and light, it fills you up from the head and balloons your body with laughter, gratitude and awe.. Love is my journey and Ive found it, not from the external but from looking within, it has come from God/universe.. Its always there. As I lay here now awake learning more,accepting what is and letting go, I feel free, alive and even the dream that woke me would once cause me pain, I now know it doesnt matter, I know this life will waiver me, I know this life has and will continue to bring me to my knees (when I forget what I know) ... But I take the rest of this life in faith, in a trust that this is nothing more than a blip on existence, that forever is real, love is real and one day I will bask in the glory of the heavens. Not because Im special but because Ive learnt to mostly create instead of react, Ive learnt to surrender Instead of submit and I believe that all the suffering can be healed, that evil (even though its everywhere) will not reign over me, it may brush my eyes, my thoughts and ears but it will never own my heart.. But its no longer about me, its now about others, accepting where they are at and shining love in hopes that they too will be freed.. I wouldnt be here without the guides and people in life that kept hope alive when I had none, to them thank you, thank you for the reminder. I hope to touch as many lives as I can with love, grace, self-respect and humility. Love to me, Love to you, Love to all.. Oh and have a beautiful day.
Posted on: Wed, 19 Nov 2014 18:01:25 +0000