9. STORY CONTINUES I was really comfortable in that moment.I sat on the couch and he was on the chair across from me. His laugh made me smile. This man I thought was such an asshole, was easing up some. I could tell he was not comfortable opening up, He is all work, which is odd since I am all over the place, maybe that’s why he is such a jerk to me most of the time. He avoided my request for him to tell me about himself. He went on about a fishing trip he went on, and a porcupine that ended up in a tent. So I asked him again ‘So Agent Wolfe, are you going to tell me anything about you?” He looked at me, smirked “Names Wolfe, I am an agent or was, this is my house, pretty much sums me up” I rolled my eyes in pure annoyance. “OK you start, tell me about Madison Monroe and how she ends up with a husband like Connor, sorry guy seems like a dick” he says. I felt my neck get red. Talking about my relationships always ends up making me feel like the biggest idiot. I clear my voice; take a sip of my wine. “he wasn’t always” He looked at me and something made me feel very defensive. I downed the rest of my wine and poured another glass. Rather annoyed that I need to explain how Connor came into my life, it meant starting at the beginning. I took a deep breath “ I am not an idiot, just so you know. I am strong, confident, independent, *letting out a heavy sigh* oh who am I kidding I don’t know how I ended up with Connor. I dated great guys, then in college I met Liam. He was amazing, he totally got me, we had what I thought was a great thing. Then he changed. He was distant, always preferred other women’s company but wanted me there. Only to criticize it seemed at the end, I gave him all I could give. Then he crushed me. I was damaged before, that just sealed the deal. Then Connor came, he was successful, handsome, charming and adored me. He seemed to understand my insecurities and went out of his way to show me he was different. Over time I let all my walls down, I trusted him. Even when I caught him in a lie. * I felt the tears roll down my face, as I talked. Sipping some wine. I wiped them away* I didn’t want to believe I could be so stupid again, so I chose to look the other way. Not for him, for myself. How could one girl be so stupid? Right? We have been married for three years; I have had divorce papers ready half way into our second. Whenever he thought it was coming he would wow me, or so he thought. All it did was postpone things. I didn’t want to look like the asshole for leaving after he always made such public displays of his affection. Connor was always about his appearance his image I apparently helped that, its why he wanted me around. I was just an object to him like everything else.*I pause* Is he dead? *Wolfe shook his head and shrugged indicating he wasn’t sure* I guess you had to hurry away too huh? I asked. I wiped the remaining tears and finished off my wine. I nervously laugh; embarrassed I just put it all out there. “I like to cook, read, workout, the beach and I love my Walker” I blurt out trying to squash the enormous uncomfortable feeling in the room. I hated the look on his face like he felt bad for me. “I am not pathetic, I am using Connor too. I have been able to have nice things, saved up some money, and I have a great career now” I say annoyed at the way he looking at me and trying to justify the humiliating truth I just exposed. Damn it Maddie now you just sound like a gold digging pathetic crazy woman. I think to myself. “I don’t think you are pathetic at all” he said and drank his wine. That’s it? I just disclosed years of insecurities and admitted being damaged. Ok Maddie stay calm control the irrational crazy side. He doesn’t need it all in one night. I think to myself. I nod my head agreeing with my thoughts, smiling at him as I drink. “Ok Wolfe what’s your story, why this house? No pictures? No wife? Girlfriend? You’re an ok looking guy. What’s your deal?” I ask he laughs. “you think I am alright looking huh?” He says. I roll my eyes. “Sorry I don’t need anymore assholes in my life, now come on really. What’s your deal?” I say with a sarcastic tone. He sips his wine “Ok If it will shut you up I will tell you” he says “It will at least while you are talking” I laugh as I say. He continues on talking and I sit listening grateful there will be a new topic to focus on. MORE TO CONTINUE Nick Wolfe
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