9 You know the kind of deep sleep that when u wake,u feel like u just woke up from the dead. I woke up to bangs on the door, as I tried to lift my head off of the pillow,it felt as heavy as an anchor. The knocks on the door where like drums @ a Zulu festival,my heart was literally pounding to every bang. I stumbled slowly to the door knob,and wanted to ask who it was,but my energy levels wouldnt let me,I peeped through the door lens and saw a couple of familiar faces,and decided to unlock. A group of people marched into my suite like soldiers on a mission,geez they made me dizzy. Four of my colleagues where worried sick about me,they all started speaking at the same time,asking me where I disappeared to,why I smell like a dump site,and what the hell am I doing dressed like Im from boulevard (the fancy club in phakalane). All the talking and complaining and whining they did was just making me dizzy and uneasy, as I grew more and more nauseas their speech just started sounding impaired and fast forwarded. I felt the puke rush to my mouth,I made a 1st attempt and they all scattered from me,immediately followed by a 2nd and successful attempt.I felt all the puke push me back and I threw up on the floor,I caught some puke with my hands. They were looking at me in shock,and there was nothing I could do about it. After a few throw ups,I felt my body breathing new air,relieved of the hangover. Just as I stood up from where I had done all the mess,I asked what time it was, 1249 one of my colleagues said. Thats when I felt that cloud of shame fall on me,I wanted to run and hide, or maybe just turn invincible, but hey whats done is done. I could not believe I had slept all afternoon,I missed the morning session of work,and Chris, thats who I really missed. I missed him but I was angry,angry at myself for letting him get to me,angry that I blamed him for my misconduct,angry that I let myself show weakness. Over a man!! I couldnt even look any of my co-workers in the eye,because when u relate the way I do with them,when u never show weakness, when u are always the model of perfection daily,no flaws nothing! And now at this point they see me at my lowest,and the reason is a man I dont even know. The shame hurts,and it wont even leave u alone,u will feel it from every direction, I felt like storming outside the room. Then I started apologising profusely,and walking back and forth. Their faces turned from shock to worry, thats when one of them told me to go get a shower, clean up and get ready for the 2nd half of the day and they will call the hotel staff to clean the mess...they were all positive and not judgemental,so I felt a lil encouraged..as I walked into the bathroom,they walked out, I guess to have their lunch. An hour later I walked out in a white pencil dress and heels,a clutch bag under my arm, acting and feeling fresh. The Karabo they saw a while back was history, forgotten I hope. As I walked closer and closer to the conference room I started to feel a bit uncomfortable,knots building in my stomach,and my lower eyelid started to twitch. I knew then that something was not right,something bad was about to happen...I paused to gasp for air, and then texted Kabone,I told her I loved her. Walking in my eyes couldnt believe what was before me, at that point I wanted to faint,but I couldnt, a man walked to me and asked me why Im standing like that,and why I look like I just saw a ghost. Thank God for that man,because he held my arm and led me to a chair, I sat down and he gave me a bottle of water. My head was spinning, I kept starring at the two men standing by the officials table,my mouth went dry instantly...Chris and Tebo!
Posted on: Mon, 24 Nov 2014 09:47:40 +0000
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