Admin love story... At the age of 14 I began attending a alternative school where I met a guy we ended up dating for 2 years it was a horrible relationship and at the age of 16 he was sent to jail and I was free to do what was best for me. At that time what was best for me was focusing on school, I became a straight a student a teachers assistant and the top of my vocation in a matter of a month. While serving plates at lunch hour my very dear friend introduced me to a guy (being that I was in focus mode I was not very nice) I knew the guy from years before but we never really hung out we just knew of each other. Well he soon started dating my friend and she considered me her best friend, she was one of those that had to have her best friend and significant other be the best of friends... She programmed my number in his phone and vise versa insisting we talk to each other. I never even tried wasnt interested in getting to know anyone I just wanted to stay on track. Well while at her house one might about... 3 weeks into their relationship it was nearing time for me to head back home around 10:30ish and my phone went off saying good night everyone and it was from him. I waited for hers but after 30 minutes of dead silence on her phone I texted a couple other friends that talked with him and none had received the same text... So on my way back I called to see what the deal was with the text and he just played it off. Two weeks later he broke things off with her. Having become some what friends I kept talking with him and comforting my friend she quickly moved on and after a month of hanging out everyday and talking non stop while I was getting ready for the long ride to school one morning (4:30 am was my normal departure time) my phone went off and it was a text from him asking me to come outside, I had no idea what he was doing at my house but I finished getting ready and went out the door ready to hop on my bus. He practically pushed me into his car and jumped in the drivers seat. When I asked what was going on he said he had lived in Florida, the sunshine state his whole life and never watched the sun rise on the beach. We had three hours to kill before school so we took the 45 minute drive and watched the sun rise on a perfectly clear day. He told me that for the past year he had been befriending various members of my inner circle to get just a little closer to me in the hopes of being able to just be my friend but that having reached that point friendship couldnt be enough he wanted to be together and had to know how I felt. To this day I laugh about that moment I had never felt more sick in my life I thought I would throw up all over him, here was this nice sweet guy who just pulled a Humphrey bogart and I couldnt be with him knowing my friend someone I cared for would be upset... So I just didnt answer... I got in the car and sat there until we got to school upon the car stopping I ran into the building and vanished into the crowd as fast as I could. I ran straight to my best friend (I called him token) and told him everything that happened fully expecting him to tell me to stay away from him being token was my exs best friend but he did the complete opposite and I will always remember every word. While hugging me as tight as he could he said Raven you just spent two years in a damaged relationship, Im not going to say to rush into anything but give it a chance dont let one stupid boy ruin it for the real men in the world. If she is really your friend she wont care she will want you to be happy I had him meet me in the stairwell and I told him I felt just how he did but that given we were both about to graduate we should wait until after we are out of high school so that we have a drama free start... As expected when I told my friend she went off and friendship was over. We went through the next 5 months of school together.. He was my best friend nothing more. Graduation came and went and once we had our chance to carve out our own piece of the world we seemed to have just forgotten about being together, that is until I got in the car one day thinking we were headed to his parents but we ended up back at that same beach as best friends and left as best friends who could openly be together. We went on in our little honey moon phase for what seemed like forever, we moved in together and started building a life..... Then the midnight phone calls started....... After being together for almost 3 years I woke up late for work one morning and while rushing to get ready I heard his phone going off... I answered thinking there was some emergency and it was some random girl.... I could feel my heart breaking when I heard her asking has she left yet? I just hung up and left like nothing had happened.... I went the whole day without thinking about it until just before my shift ended two girls came in.... I knew ones voice... It was the girl from the phone.... I felt like I couldnt breathe... Every second hurt more then the last.... I had a full panic attack and my boss sent me home. When I got back our roommate was gone and it was just me and him... He could tell something was wrong and for the first time in longer then I realized it seemed like he really cared... I sat down and asked him if he was happy and watched as he lied to me... When I told him a knew about the girl his answer will forever ring in my head..... His face softened and he asked with a crack in his voice... Which one.... Not only had he been going around behind my back but he had been doing it with more then one girl.... I think thats the moment I felt time stop. It was like I was arguing with myself in my head and the world had to pause to let me. I had spent so much time thinking we were happy only to have a harsh slap across the face to change that in a instant... I left. I couldnt stay and I had gotten my answer I found out how many there were. Here I am today and every now any then he will write me or I will write him just to make sure we are still alive. I love him he did something for me that I needed. I needed someone to love me so much that for just a small fraction of my life I would let my guard down to have a chance at being hurt. That is my first love sorry it doesnt end as pretty as a classic love tale but I guess I got what I wanted he was bogey and I was Bergman I left in the end. ~Raven
Posted on: Tue, 19 Nov 2013 05:39:00 +0000
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