After much thought and contemplation, prayer, tears, more tears, and missing my precious princess and strong son, I have decided to take my Aunt Becky up on her offer to move me down to Sallisaw to be closer to my family there. These last few years have drained me emotionally, financially, spiritually, and physically. I thought I was doing what was best for my children--whom I love with every single fiber of my being--but what I didnt realize is that I cant live without them any more than they can live without me. I would say that moving here to NWA was a mistake, but in all things we do in life, whether followed by good consequences or bad, there are always lessons to be learned, threads woven into the tapestry of our lives, people we meet who will touch our lives forever, and scars that are left not to remind us of our failures, but to remind us that we survived. So, I am a survivor. I may be in so much pain right now, so embarrassed at my mistakes and missteps, but I will absolutely make it back on top. I have several advantages....I have a family who loves me so very unconditionally, friends who have stood by my side through my stupidity, a resolve that some psychologists would say border on insanity, and a God Who loves me so incredibly that it boggles my mind....He just continues to be right there, standing behind me, arms wide open, always ready to love me, hold me, keep me, sustain me, and sing over me with delight. Why? I cant answer that with terms understandable by humans. I only know that I know that I know that He is there, He is here, He is with me, and He is my breath of life.
Posted on: Wed, 26 Mar 2014 15:09:19 +0000