As the grieving process becomes so real and some days are so empty I keep being reminded of moms love for The Lord. Hes brought me comfort in unexpected ways. Just one was last Friday night when I was at a place when I was angry with God...I sat alone and prayed but still felt the tug of the Holy Spirit. I went to my church where a friend met me to pray and I sat down to write a few things out. Before doing this I decided to check my email. Mom and I has always emailed. Sometimes so many times in a day that I honestly didnt have time to open them all. This night in the midst of The tears streaming down my face and my racing heart and confused mind I saw an unopened email from my mom. I read it. I went on and found another that I had not found until after the funeral (another unopened one). It was her singing a little chorus I jotted down as a child. It talks about how close we are to heaven and this life is just a vapor. Instantly things were put in perspective for me again. What am I searching for? What is the uneasiness Im feeling? I came away that night realizing my mom was my accountability partner. Theres nothing wrong with those. Unless you run to them before you run to Jesus with your problems. I think sometimes I did that. The Lord is teaching me through all of this grief and I am thankful that He alone can bring me comfort, peace in the storm and still lovingly teach me the same lessons over and over again. He is patient to just keep guiding me back to where I need to be in this stage of grief. Todays Jesus calling reads: Demonstrate your trust in Me by sitting quietly in My Presence. Put aside all that is waiting to be done, and refuse to worry about anything. This sacred time together strengthens you and prepares you to face whatever the day will bring. By waiting with Me before you begin the day’s activities, you proclaim the reality of My living Presence. This act of faith—waiting before working—is noted in the spirit world, where your demonstration of trust weakens principalities and powers of darkness. The most effective way to resist evil is to draw near Me. When you need to take action, I will guide you clearly through My Spirit and My Word. The world is so complex and overstimulating that you can easily lose your sense of direction. Doing countless unnecessary activities will dissipate your energy. When you spend time with Me, I restore your sense of direction. As you look to Me for guidance, I enable you to do less but accomplish more. Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear… Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” —Luke 12:22–25 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. —Ephesians 6:12 Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. —Proverbs 16:3
Posted on: Fri, 29 Aug 2014 13:08:29 +0000