Awwww yesssss I have a porch to sit out on and just relax while the thunder rolls.....and lightning lights up the sky...gets me thnking about a convo had with a friend earlier today..why and how are u single stilll..me: Im NOT......I let it be silent for a moment...then I said umm seriously Im in a relationship with school and life is revolved around all that for the next few weeks..(no one gets it..unless ur a nursing student)...then it went onto about being lonley blah blah blah...yes I do get lonley sometimes(im human)when Im by myself and summers not here...plus shes at the age she rather be by herself doing her own thing the majority of the time.I miss cuddling with her and her needing me more than just wanting something from me (u know normal teen..I miss her little cuddles)..as far as a guy..yeah i miss the date nights.movies...or just relaxing at home with someone next to me.going for drives...yeah Im human I do want that...but I love my life at this time and I pray everyday for whomever God has planned to be in my life whenever that may happen that they put God first and respect and love me as much as I will them..everyone has there ups and downs..thats life.. but hope neither of us give up easily...then the question arises about how Summer would take it...my response I know how I think she would react cuZ we have talked about all of this..as long as she knows they are a friend to her and not a daddy figure (shes too old for that and has a dad) NO getting onto her (thats my job)..seriously that should be a relief I would think with the man in my life that he has no responsibilities on her...and to hear that from him also would be a relief to her cuz i knw thats what she worries about besides the fact it wouldnt just be me and her......yes would be awkward at first..im sure she would be distant at first like she was with her dads family..but communication is key in this and actions speak louder than words.....and she would respect someone who talked to her about that hes a friend to her that loves her mom...period..and she would always know she is my world(any good mom would make sure that comes first about there child).anyways thats how I feel now about it all..my friend starts laughing and said day after graduation Im setting u up with my friend I also have a brother that would be good too.I just laughed....she didnt hear a word I said..she was just thinking of who the set up would be with..oh my friends I have...Geeesh this sitting on the porch alone makes me think too much...lol Im happy..have what I need....I feel Im where I need to be in this chapter of my life..be happy and keep on keepin on:)
Posted on: Sat, 11 Oct 2014 03:45:01 +0000
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