Be ever watchful, for the devil works in the absence of accountability. I recently spent the last 8 months completely changing my life, working back towards a relationship with god, so I could lead my family down a fulfilling path. I had spent the last 15 years allowing the world to engulf my being, I was taking every opportunity the devil could throw my way and running with it. The entire time thinking it was alright, I had given my life to god, and asked Jesus to be a part of my life. This fact did prevent me from going too far, but still I was such a fool. For years this went on, myself jumping from one worldly thing to another, seeking satisfaction and fulfillment, never finding it, drifting further from the truth, drifting further from my family, drifting further from god. 2014 I woke up, and began my slow climb out of the mud, it was not easy, and I took it day by day, failure by failure. Each day climbing 10 feet, then falling 5 feet only to do it again the next. Oddly enough, on the 7th month I had finally started climbing a bit more efficiently, covering more distance, I still fell plenty, but I was on fire. Then as the summit came into view, and hope began flourishing inside of me... EVERYTHING came crashing down, the devil had used his greatest tool, deception, to cloud my vision, he slithered his hatred into the hearts of those I loved and cared about the most, causing them to destroy my life. They took away everything, I was left homeless, with no family, no money, nothing, everything I had built and sacrificed the last half of my life for... gone... ripped away by lies, deceit, anger, opportunity, and malice. At first, I slipped and fell, I wanted to wallow in my pity, I wanted to call it quits and I wanted to end the struggle of changing for the good, for it was only bringing pain, and pain in the worst ways I could personally handle. Thats when I stood up, I prayed to god for strength, and he delivered, I prayed to god for wisdom, and he delivered, I prayed to god for forgiveness, and he delivered, I prayed to god to throw even more obstacles in my way... to show to me just how much can be thrown at me while I remain standing strong. This gave me hope, this reminded me of the person I once was so long ago, these trials showed me I need not fear, I need not seek retribution, I need not give in to anger... I only needed to get back to work with him and share his message of love. The first day I prayed for those that the devil used to distract me from my journey up the mountain, those that had caused me pain was the day I reached the peak of the mountain. My soul had been set free, My shoulders sore from the weight of the world were tired and weak no more. My life, was mine again, mine to freely share with the lord and those I love and care about. Free to see what a husband truly is, free to understand the significance of fatherhood, free from the deception of the the devils lies. Now I stand using prayer to build my rope that I will lower down from the top of this mountain for my family, my loved ones to grab a hold and guide them. Every day I pray for god to work miracles in their hearts, in their minds, to wash away the fog the devil has engulfed them in. To share with them the same hope and fulfillment I have found in jesus christ and his message of love.While my world around me shakes violently, and the people I care about are deceived into slashing and gnawing at me... I walk peacefully, without the fear of the scene around me, without the fear of loss, without the fear that is trying to penetrate my soul..... I walk with god
Posted on: Sun, 10 Aug 2014 14:51:19 +0000