Cant sleep. LONG POST. But necessary for me to vent this. Been thinking and reviewing a bunch of old messages in my inbox. I feel bad because a lot of you have asked me if I can help you with a friend of yours who is sick and needs money or some have asked me to help you out financially or asked me to set up or support a fundraiser for you to make money for someone you know who is in the hospital or youre in a band and are asking me to get you on tour or reach out to record labels or some people I know in the industry. Honestly its been painful to read cause I truly cant help most of you. Its not that I dont want to or Im some jerk who isnt willing. I have always helped when I can and to people I dont know. But I want you all to know that I am not in a position to be financially helping out people. I cant get your band on warped tour. Im a crew guy, not a booking agent or manager. I had one kid tell me that I was ignorant for not responding to him and that I didnt deserve to get paid for the TV show I was on. News flash. WE DIDNT GET PAID!! We did 2 seasons for free. It was our way of helping all of you to go out and have dreams and achieve them through hard work. It was our way of giving you an inside look at the life and struggles of being on the road. In fact, we lost money by doing the show by trying to self promote it and turn it into something bigger with our own money. Never once did we receive a dime. And neither did Kevin Lyman. So to all of you who think I live in some mansion and made millions off our show, I didnt. And frankly, it bums me the hell out when I get messages about how I need to help you with this or that or get you in to warped tour for free cause you cant afford it and I get sob stories about how hard your lives are. It really is hard on me to hear that cause I grew up poor and had my issues too and dealt with depression and best friends dying, family issues, and many more things that sucked so I feel your pain. I appreciate everyones constant love and support but I cant buy you tickets to shows. I cant pay your hospital bills or even turn my Facebook into a spam machine that constantly asks for money to help this person and that person. Im telling you all! Hard work pays off. Dont go out and ask for freebies and help. Dont rely on the world cause it usually lets you down. Get out there and get your hands dirty and your chance will come. I admit I have been blessed but it didnt come easy. I still struggle to take care of myself sometimes. I portray it otherwise but why make life seem remotely sad? If you portray life hard and unfortunate, it will be exactly that! I dont care if your life sucks, pretend it rules and smile. It will lead to happiness when you decide that you will only have it that way, no matter what curve balls you get. So to those who are saddened by this, Im sorry. I feel terrible after 2 years of countless messages and emails about how I need to help you etc etc.. I hear you and I read these things and if Im able, Ive helped. But please. I take it personal enough. If you can avoid it, please dont ask me for money or things that are unrealistic. I am completely willing to give advice and share stories and even be an open ear to you if I can and it will benefit your life if I speak to you about things I can relate to but I have a family in Utah who has enough stuff on our plate and I wont share details but each family has their own struggles. Ive done my best to take a positive and encouraging stance to a lot of you out there that Ive met on tour and in my hometown. I hope I touched lives positively and none negatively. I love that Ive had a chance to actually have a fan or numerous fans. How rare and lucky is that? But please be realistic in your messages and dont lay heavy things on me that I cannot fix or help you out with. Its beginning to really make me feel hopeless and I truly care so much that its hard to hear some things Ive heard. Love you all and hope I can always be a happy value in your life, especially if youre a fan of mine or our show. And hey, if you need to smile, just look at these pictures instead of messaging me a sad story that I cannot physically or financially help you out with. Hope this didnt come off pointless or make no sense, its been chipping away at me and I just gotta let you all know that I am not a super hero and I more likely cant save you but maybe I can be an example or something you think is a good role model. Or maybe I can be a good example of what you dont want to be Hahha. But I hope its the other option .
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 11:23:22 +0000
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