(Chapter four contd) “Oh but we are” she turned off the ignition, still smiling. “Start the car” I barked at her, my insides twisting in a pain that I hoped wouldn’t resurface again. “Start the damn car and get me out of here now” I couldn’t believe my eyes, I couldn’t believe that she would have the nerve to bring me back. “Why?” I asked her, not wanting to know the answer, but I had a feeling I was going to get one anyway. “Why here and why now?” Shay looked out of the windshield towards my apartment. “I think you already know the answer to that one” I couldn’t help but still glare at her, I didn’t know how she had expected me to react to being told that she had drove through an whole day with me asleep at her side, back to Cape Cod. “You need to do this” she reached across the car and made a grab for my hand but I moved it out of her reach so she placed it on my cheek instead. “Please look at me Felix” her voiced was suddenly sugary light and begging, turning my eyes from the silhouette of my apartment block back to hers. “You need to do this or I would not have brought you here” Closing my eyes I felt her soft skin on my face, her rainbow aura starting to blend within my own murky one, lightening it somehow. “Shay, I don’t want to see her” I whispered into the palm of her hand that slowly covered my mouth, her fingers caressing me gently. “Please don’t make me see her” “It is much too late for you to be seeing anyone at this time of the night” she opened her car door, still holding on softly to my face. “Let’s head inside and see what tomorrow brings” I didn’t make a move to open my door. “Please Felix; please do this for me” “Ok” I relented and climbed back out of the car, looking down towards the coffee shop with the little flat above it, both cloaked in total darkness. “Smile my sweet” Shay looped her arm through mine when I joined her at the front of the block. “This isn’t going to be the end of the world; you never know it just might end up being the closure you need in order for you to be able to close that little chapter of your life so that you can make a move to turn the page and start a new one” I nodded at her, forcing myself to give her a faint little smile. “Yeah; you might be right” I opened the main door and held it for her to walk on through. I caught a whiff of her sweet natural scent, now mingled with one of the immortal kind. Shaking my head I followed her inside and pointed towards the stars and a few seconds later we were both standing in my living room. “Would you like some coffee?” I asked her. “I would love some, thank you Felix” she grinned at me, her eyes lightening in her happiness. “You are so thoughtful” she went to sit down on the edge of her the chair. “You will have to come with me into the kitchen and help me to make it, because I have no idea” I frowned at her, not wanting her to sit down in my seat, a seat that Demi had been sat in the first time she had come here. “You men” she giggled following behind me into the kitchen. “Without us, you’d never be able to get anything done” I sat down on the stool watching her move around my kitchen, pulling everything she needed out of the cupboards better than I did. At least she had her psychic sense to tell her where everything was kept, it was my place and I didn’t know so lucky her that she did, because I would’ve been no help. “What do you know” I chuckled along with her. “Maybe you are right” I watched her place a new filter into the coffee maker before turning it on. “Lucky you are really pretty” she stepped slowly towards me, her hands clasped in front of her chest wickedly. “So pretty” she teased me and I closed my eyes. “And you are so smart too” I felt her standing in front of me, then her hands touched my shoulders holding on and I prayed that she would remove them again. “I like you so much Felix” she breathed softly into my ear, her lips brushing my cheek and I begged her silently not to do what I thought she was going too. “I know you like me too” her lips lightly caressed the side of my face. “Please don’t” I begged, trying to sit sat in my seat and I hoped she would hear my thoughts again and stop trying to make me fall for her. “Oh Felix” I kept my eyes closed when I felt her make a start to back away from me and I breathed a sigh of relief and that was when I felt her mouth hit my own, kissing me deeply. I didn’t want to kiss her back and I fought everything she was, her mind reached out to touch mine in her attempt to entice me to give in to her little form of playful seduction. “Kiss me harder” she whispered while still trying to get me to kiss her back. Losing my mind I felt myself start to kiss her back, jumping from the stool like I had been struck I started to back up. “Why did you do that?” I couldn’t think of anything else to say to her, my mind was reeling from the shock that I kissed her back, no matter how slightly it was, I still kissed her. Leaning my head against the wall I closed my eyes, the image of Demi’s smiling face become clouded before being replaced by one of pain and tears. “Why would you do that?” I asked her again when she didn’t answer me. “Why Shay?” “Because I thought you wanted me too” I looked at her, watching her sit down onto the stool I had leapt form no more than a few seconds ago. “I love another” I whispered to her. “You know that” “I am so sorry. I will go” she stood up trying to pass me, but I stopped her. “No” I frowned down at her, her eyes so dark that they looked black now and not anything like the dark green they were a few moments ago. “You are going to stay here; we both are and then in the morning we are going to drive back to the coven so that I can get my car and leave both you and her behind me” “Why won’t you give me a chance” she asked me when I lead her into my bedroom, opening the door. “If I can’t have her, then I am not going to allow myself to have anyone else” I kissed her on the cheek. “Goodnight Shay” I smiled kindly at her. “I am going to sleep on the sofa and I will see you first thing in the morning” turning I closed the door behind me, walking back into the living room I sat down heavily in my chair hearing her sit down on my bed. Where could I go? I did not have the faintest idea; I had lived in Cape Cod for too many years for me to want to move on. She was almost twenty two so I would not be able to come back for another fifty to sixty years, maybe longer. “Oh god Alyssa what kind of mess have I allowed myself to become involved in this time” I thought to myself placing my head in my hands. I prayed for sleep to come and take me away, but I had already slept in the car for seven hours and now I couldn’t even find some comfort while I waited another long night out. “Maybe I could sneak one last look at her before I walked away from her for the rest of her natural life” shaking my head I stood up and walked out of my apartment knowing that was a bad idea, but I needed something to do to take my mind of her and I was starting to grow hungry again. “Maybe feeding would help me to find some peace tonight” I thought walking out onto the deadly quiet street, turning left I walked away from both Demi’s flat and Shay in mine. “Where could I go?” I thought to myself walking towards Barnstable. Each foot step brought me closer to running away again; I wanted to run but I didn’t even have my car, it was still at the secret underground tunnel of Shay’s coven and I hated myself for being stupid enough to allow her to take control of my life for a few hours and look where it had got me, right back to the start, somewhere I didn’t want to be. But I did want to be here; not matter how much I tried to convince myself otherwise, if there was one person I couldn’t lie to, then it was me. A few minutes later while I sat on a bench I spot a young woman walking towards me with her little dog, sitting up straighter when she headed my way. I willed myself to stay in my seat. I didn’t want to kill again, but the need to sink my teeth into flesh, taking the whole life force started to awaken inside me again. The beast that lived deep within me begged me to come out and play. “Good night for a walk” she said politely. “Yes it is” I replied, watching her walk passed me. “Excuse me” I called out to her, jumping to my feet. “Yes” she stopped, turning back to face me while her little black fluffy dog sat down next to her. “Can I help you?” “Yes, well I am really hoping you can help me” I frowned at her, scratching my head, feigning puzzlement. “I am on my stag and as you can probably tell” I started to chuckle lightly. “My boys have left me stranded and I have no idea where I am and I am getting married in” I looked at my wrist that held no watch. “Eleven hours’ time. Can you tell me where I am?” “Of course” she smiled sympathetically at me, sitting down on the bench. “You are in Barnstable county” she told me and I shook my head. “Where are you from?” “New York” I whispered to her. “Two hundred miles away” standing up I pretended to panic. “She is going to kill me if I don’t turn up for the wedding tomorrow” “Seriously” she gasped her hand over her mouth. “Is there anything I can do to help you?” she asked me kindly and I nodded. “You wouldn’t have a phone that I could use would you?” she stood up and smiled. “I love a few minutes away, would you like to come and try and ring someone who could help you get back to New York” “If you wouldn’t mind” I smiled back at her, following her back towards her home. “You are an angel in disguise” I flirted with her, making her blush. “Who lives with you” I ask her standing outside her little house on the doorstep. “Just me and Helix” she smiled down at the little dog sat on the doorstep waiting for her to hurry up and let him, the same thought that was going through my mind. “I just hope that you are able to make your way back in time for the wedding” she smiled opening the front door; standing aside she allowed me room to walk in ahead of her. “There phone is on the desk in the living room, I am going to give Helix some water” she went into the kitchen while I pretended to use the phone. “How did it go” she asked me walking into the living room, sitting down on the arm of a chair. “Not well” I grimace, sitting down on the chair to my left. “She was not happy” I chuckled lightly. “Are they sending someone to pick you up?” I nodded in reply. “Then you will stay here until they arrive for you” she told me, standing back up at the same time that I did. “Thank you” I smiled down at her. “Don’t mention it. Are you hungry?” I nodded again. “Can I fix you something?” “No” I told her walking closer to her, stopping just in front of her, my fingers tracing the fats throbbing little vein on the side of her neck and she started to back up into the wall. “No you cannot fix me what I need” I told her, my breath coming in quick little pants. “You have exactly what I want and need right here” my finger stroking the vein, my teeth coming out of hiding behind my gums. They lengthened and I enjoyed the pain it brought to me, flowing along my gum line. “Please do not hurt me” she pleaded with me, her eyes growing wider when she saw my sharp teeth. “Don’t worry” I smiled down at her, my other hand brushing her hair out of her eyes. “I won’t hurt you” I promised her and she breathed a small sigh of relief. “Because I am going to kill you” my mouth hits her neck before my words could sink in to be understood, drinking from her deeply she was dead before she had a chance to get her mouth and brain working together for her to be able to let out a faint scream. Letting her body drop to the floor I turn and spot the little black dog watching me intently, his tail started to wag excitedly for me to make a fuss of him. “Go away Helix” I mouthed to him, walking away from them both. My hand reached the handle, turning to look back at the little dog when he yelped at me. “Oh come on then” I sighed picking up the little red lead and he ran towards me, jumping up while I clipped it to his collar. “So it looks like I have to take you in now you funny little orphan” I tickled him behind his ears, not happy that I had something else to look after that I didn’t ask for. Running out of the neat little garden, I look back and see his little legs trying to keep up with my barely fast speed. Scooping him up I place him in my arms and start running back towards my apartment, opening the door we both flew inside and I closed it gently behind me, placing the little dog down on his feet and he instantly ran off into the kitchen. “Would you like a drink little man” I asked him walking into the kitchen behind him. Picking up a small bowl out of the dishwasher I filled it with cold water and placed it on the floor for Helix. “Demi is going to love you” I told him before stopping, she wasn’t going to see him and that broke me inside even more. Walking back out of the kitchen a thought hits me and then I am running towards the bedroom, my heart beating hard inside my chest. “No” I cried out opening the door to my room and running inside, stopping at the sight that greeted me. “What are you doing” I shouted at Shay, dragging her off a limp love of my whole world. “Get off her” I barked, trying to stop her from drinking Demi dry. “What are you doing” Shay spun around angrily, trying to lash out at me, her teeth on show. “I will make you pay for that” she screeched at me. “Shay calm down” I held her against the wall, trying to control my own anger. “Calm down and calm down now” I was seething. “You don’t even want her” she roared trying to fight her way out of my hold on her. “You don’t even want her; I want her and I want to take her life force as my mine” she clawed at my face with her nails, drawing blood that ran quickly down my cheek, shocking me enough to let her go and my hand flew to my face. “Felix” Demi screamed out weakly. “He is in shock and is in no fit state to help save you from a death that is bowing down upon you little sweet human blood bank” she giggled at Demi and slowly I turned and watched the scuffle on the bed in a dreamlike state. “Felix” she called out again. Staring down at the blood coating my fingertips I couldn’t make myself move to save her. I had never in two thousand years been hurt, let alone wounded by anyone else. I hadn’t hurt me, but feeling my cheek bursting open like that had taken my mind away from me. “Felix” I heard her begging and I needed to get to her, but I just couldn’t get my mind and body to make a start to work together, closing my eyes I urged myself to move towards her. “He is not going to be helping you” I heard Shay laugh at her, turning my insides into a swirling mist of an enraged beast, but still I couldn’t get my shocked mind from closing down on me. “He isn’t even a fighter; he has had no need to fight for anything. He has always been the strongest and only one of his kind before and now what do you know” I heard her mock me and there wasn’t a thing I could do to make her stop. “I am more of a match for him and when you are dead, he will have no other choice than to love me too, maybe he will love me more than he ever did you” her laugh turned shrill, breaking me out of whatever had gotten a deep rooted hold of me. Grabbing her by the arm I threw her against the wall before standing in front of Demi, protecting her from a crazy blood starved Shay. “If you want to kill her, then you will have to kill me first” I said quietly, my mind flipping inside out. “Why are you being like this” she asked me, a small smile tugging up the corners of her mouth. “I thought you and I had a connection” she stopped in front of me, her hands on her hips, licking her lips when she caught the scent of Demi’s blood again. “Screw the connection” I threw at her, wiping the smile off her face. “You and I had nothing Shay and we never will, I love her and if you try to take her away from me then you are going to have the fight of your life on your hands” “You would kill me to protect someone you don’t want to be with” she gasped. I nodded, staring down at her. “Yes, yes I will” Shay sat down on the window seat, eying her up and I moved to the side so that she had no view of her and sat down in front of Demi, who I now felt clinging to but back. “But you don’t want to be with her?” “For her own safety” I closed my eyes, before thinking better of it and opened them again, thankful that she hadn’t tried to make a move on her again. “But that doesn’t mean I don’t love her or want to be with her; it just means that I love her enough to stay away from her so that she can have the life she needs” “But you do love her and want to be with her?” Shay asked me and I felt Demi’s hands clutching onto my side even tighter now. “Yes” was all I said to her, hating myself even more for putting her in danger yet again. “And you think you will be able to stop me from killing her?” “I know so” I replied, keeping eye contact with her. “And if you try it again then you are going to be the first vampire in known history to wind up floating in the Atlantic Ocean” I watched her giggle; my anger grew to a whole new level now. “Are you sure about that” she couldn’t keep the amusement out of her voice. “You are a mere vamp-ire and I am so much more than you will ever be” she stood up the same time that I did, glaring up at me, making me smile. “So much more than you” she told me again. “The only thing you can do more than me, is talk way too much” I glared back down at her. “I am not warning you, I am telling you. You either stay away from Demi or I am going tear you apart until you beg death to come, maybe even then I won’t give in and kill you if you hurt her again” Shay tried to walk round me, my hand grabbed a hold of her, forcing her to stay on the spot. “You don’t scare me Felix” she giggled again. “You are no fighter” she stopped talking, staring at me, grinning. “But you are not even a lover either, so what exactly are you?” “Shay I do not care what you think” I folded my arms across my chest, looking down at her, my voice serious. “But I am telling you if you even think about hurting her then you are going to be no more. Go ahead if you want me to prove that point for you” stepping aside I allowed her to see Demi again. “Go ahead, make your move” “Felix you have gone mad” I heard Demi cry out to me as I stood aside to allow Shay the chance to pass me. I watched Shay intently eyeing her up, edging slowly towards her. “Go on” I thought to myself. “Make my day” Shay’s eyes grew wider, her teeth tugging to break free again when she saw that I didn’t make a move to protect the girl on the bed. “This is a trap” she spoke again, standing still, her eyes never leaving Demi’s face. “You are just going to kill me” Closing my eyes I stepped even further away from the bed. “There is no trap, go ahead and kill her if you want too I won’t stop you. But remember one thing before you do, once you make your first kill the need will drive you insane until you kill again and that need will never go away again. Not forgetting the guilt that will end up choking you with each new kill and that is something that will never go away or lesson with time and it will keep getting bigger until you fall out of your own mind, your last feeble hand hold onto your humanity, gone forever, leaving behind nothing but a monster” “Felix what are you doing?” Demi whispered to me and I heard the fear in her voice. “So what is it going to be Shay?” I asked her, trying to ignore the pleas from the bed. “I love this girl; but if you feel that you have to kill her, then please allow me to do one thing” “What one thing?” Shay asked me frowning up at me. “Allow me to say good bye to her” I whispered, my eyes closing for a second, trying to relax my mind in order for me to be able to control my pain and anger again. “Please let me say good bye to her first” I didn’t which of the three of us was more shocked by my words; maybe I wasn’t shocked because it was something that I longed for deep down. “Just give this one thing to me, without any trouble and we will call that debt you owe me, quits” “Ok” Shay smirked at me, folding her arms across her chest, watching my face intently for any changes. “Thank you” I turned to Demi still sat on the bed, backed up to the wall, her hands pressing into the sheets turning white, waiting for the moment when she would have to try and fight her way from Shay again. “Demi this is something I have to do” I whisper to her, a little smile on my lips never rising to meet my eyes. “Please don’t die hating me” I begged her, wiping the sleeve of my jacket across my mouth as I moved slowly onto the bed, my hand reaching out for her, but she moved even further away from me and I couldn’t speak to her. I pleaded with my eyes for her to stop trying to get away from me, I longed for one last forbidden kiss before she died. “For god sake you silly little human, just kiss him one last time so that I can take you as my own” Shay ranted from behind me, turning I held my hand up to her to make her stop talking. This was going to be my one last moment with Demi, so she should give it to me. “Go ahead and kiss her, I won’t say anything” she promised sitting back down on the window seat again, not even looking my last private moment with the only one who kept my heart beating. I hoped everything was going to go my way, but I was bluffing. Was I willing to lose her if it didn’t work to my advantage, looking at Demi still on the bed I knew the answer to that, but I still couldn’t bring myself to kill the only other person in the whole world that was like me and no matter how much losing the love of my world was going to crush me beneath the pain, spending my forever alone would crush me more. Closing my eyes I pressed my lips tenderly against hers, she kept her mouth closed, but there was no way that I could even open my mouth to kiss her properly and then I didn’t have to, she started to give in to her own love for me and she kissed me back. Opening my mouth I allowed the potion to flow into hers, pressing her lips together with my own I wouldn’t allow her to spit it back out and I closed my eyes hearing her swallowing it and I hoped against hope that it would be enough to save her live, not enough to change her into something I didn’t’ want for her, something I despised within myself. Stepping back from the bed I walked out of the bedroom, cringing when I heard Demi scream shrilly just as the door closed with a gentle click. Sitting down on the chair I willed myself to stay put, I couldn’t risk everything for my own stupid act of madness, this had to work and I had to allow it too. I jumped when something wet touched my cheek, looking into deep brown eyes I frowned. “I had forgotten about you” I chuckled by the absurdity that Shay was poking me with a blood stained finger, has I had thought before I opened my eyes and saw Helix. “I know” I soothed him, running my fingers through his thick fur. “The noise is scaring me a little too” he suddenly leapt into my arms when I heard her scream out, hugging him close to me I started to whisper to try and keep him calm and he was helping me to stay put in the chair. “It is all going to be fine” I thought to a few hours before, when we had first arrived, whilst still soothing the little dog. “You shouldn’t pour this one out, because I can’t spare another” she had whispered to me before I closed the bedroom door and sat down on the chair. “Well that is all done” Shay flounced back into the living room again, snapping me back out of my own mind. “I would like to share this amazing moment with you to thank you for your sacrifice” she smiled sitting down on the edge of the sofa. “I still can’t believe that you allow me to drain someone you loved more than your own life; but it is all good though, you don’t have to keep running away anymore. Because she is no longer here to run away from” standing back up and that was when I looked at her for the first time since she had sat down. “I am going to grab a coffee” with that she flounced off into the kitchen, still covered in blood. My heart was hammering inside my chest; I didn’t know if I should risk taking a peek into my bedroom. I needed to know if the potion had worked, but if it hadn’t, would I be able to handle finding her dead. That I didn’t know.
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