Day 11 and 12 of 30 to 30 1994and 1995 First of all I took the day yesterday off only to give my Thanksgiving message so you will get 2 days today. Some things that happened during these two years were Benjamin started baseball I took a layoff started my own business for about eight months and then got hired by another company in the same field. Terri and I had the opportunity to go on a retreat called the Emmaus. This was a retreat that that was able to show the love of God in such a way that we will never forget. Like I said before change was in full speed during these years. By this time most of our brothers and sisters had given birth to most of Bens cousins, my brother and his wife gave birth to Andrea, Rebecca and William. My sister gave birth to Julia, Christina and Jennifer. Terri’s sister Hope gave birth to Marlee and Jordan her brother John gave birth to Alyssa, and her brother Patrick gave birth to Eric and Allyson. After a conversation yesterday with my nieces I realized as they read this blog I have not mentioned their names enough but their importance in Terri’s and my life and with that I breathe a sigh of regret for they were and will always be very important and vital part of Terri and my relationship. Those who have had to deal with infertility tend to see other people’s children as a failure and disappointment to their dreams but Terri and I never saw our nephews and nieces that way, they are truly a blessing from God. I saw strength in Terri that rocked me to my core and saw the love that she had for others, not only did she love and acceptance all children but she celebrated them and even gave/was a part of showers and parties to welcome each and every one. In those years Terri and I were big on following the rules and if we didn’t we would not receive the blessing of God ( which was a load of crock, God never withholds his blessings because of what we do or don’t do, that’s us still wanting to eat from the tree of the knowledge of Good and evil. Our choices still have consequences so we need to live our lives and do what we do because of a love with our heavenly Father not in fear of Him) yet it look like the best way to get pregnant was not to be married!! We even joked that we might get a divorce and live together and maybe well get pregnant but that would be way too much work LOL. I do want to publicly say Im sorry to Marlee and Julia for not spending enough time in my blog talking about them ha ha. Today I see that relationships are a lot like making a gourmet meal the more you put into them the better off they are. And for those of my family and friends I am very thankful for the relationships that I still have. I hope that as I remember and explain from my perspective of these 30 years that no one will ever take what I am saying as judgment or criticism. We all do thing we are not happy about (I have too many to express) If God has forgiven me and forget the pain of that, then so do I. My purpose on this earth is to Love not judge others or point fingers. Well that enough for today thanks for reading and remember Terri I love you more and more everyday!!
Posted on: Fri, 29 Nov 2013 20:31:46 +0000
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