Dear Delicia, I used to always say I was lucky that no one I was close to had died.. It appears thats all changed. We certainly werent as close as we should have been; (as everyone says when a friend dies) but we always got along well. You were a friend and supported my music and everything Ive done up till now. I read in the comments on your wall; that it was suicide. I havent the slightest idea why you would commit such an act.. But you did, and it is unfortunate. You were a great person, and an amazing friend of mine. A lot of people make displays of emotion like these saying R.I.P., or Ill miss you, and then forget. But I wont forget you. Ill wrestle with Alzheimers deep into the oldest of my years to continue hanging on to the bit of memory I have of you. Our existence is fleeting and fragile. To be born on this earth in and of itself is a blessing, considering the billions of genetic outcomes that could have made you... Someone else. To live on this earth past the age of 35 puts you in the lucky few to have the benefits of modern medicine, and been born in the 20th or 21st centuries. For thousands of generations a life was limited to 30 or 40 years at best. Its unfortunate that even in an age where death can be prolonged for almost a century when properly watched out for; someone felt the need to end their own existence at an age not even a fraction of that. Im not sure what it speaks of the world and the people around us when a person feels the need barely into her teens to consciously remove her own life from the collective soul of this world. To remove yourself from the chance of experiencing new things, breathing new air, meeting new people, and living a full life. It... deeply saddens me that the environment around you caused you to react in such a way. As you were an amazing person, as all people are. Im not one to believe in the rhetoric about the downfall of society and are morals being somehow inherently worse today than they were in the past; but I certainly wonder about the collective nature of humanity if people such as you feel the need to oust themselves from societys trappings. It deeply saddens me and right now it affects me in ways I have not fully comprehended yet. Ive never dealt with a death before, let alone one of these shocking circumstances. I wish I could offer the condolences of knowing youre somewhere else; somewhere in the sky looking down upon us. But, my conscience wont allow me to think such thoughts. My understanding of the way death operates is both a blessing and a curse. A blessing in the sense that, because once youre gone, I truly do believe youre gone, no after life involved, and that makes me value life even more... And a curse in the sense that, once youre gone, I truly do believe youre gone. It is a most troubling thing to have to handle mentally, and I certainly was not ready for dealing with this dichotomy so early in my life. It numbs me in a sense; knowing that youre really, truly, gone. I wish I could bring you back... But I cant. Im not sure what message you wanted to leave the world, or if you even wanted to leave one. It boggles my mind; wondering what you were thinking as you left your body and its remains for someone else to uncover. I dont know the full details either; Im not sure who found you, how you did it, what made you do it, or why... But none of that matters. Youre gone. Ill truly miss you, as Id hope youd miss me. From, A most troubled and confused friend
Posted on: Tue, 16 Sep 2014 21:18:02 +0000
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