(Disclaimer: with the tragic loss of a great American entertainer I think all too often mental illness is shunned as a taboo subject. Those who suffer from it keep it to themselves because theyre afraid itll cause them to be judged harshly by others. Those that love the ones suffering dont discuss it for various reasons. Shame, guilt, fear of tripping a trigger perhaps? With that said.....) As a sufferer of mild bipolar disorder, PTSD, social anxiety, and seasonal effective disorder, the fact that it feels like fall brings mixed feelings. Yay! Cooler temps, less nuisance bugs, and school starts, holidays are growing nearer.... wah hooo! On the other side of that coin, shorter days make for more manic days, sometimes debilitating depression, and overwhelming anxiety usually associated with cabin fever. Yeah all that part can suck it. I bring this to light because it doesnt make me feel like less at least not at this particular point in time, it makes me feel like a warrior, strong enough to conquer it all as Ive done for the better part of my 41 years. I bring it up because statistically, many of you reading are likely suffering yourselves from one, some, or all of the same things I do and sweeping it under the rug can be dangerous. When you feel you have no outlet, no release, like you cannot improve upon yourself beyond what you already are, your chances of becoming a statistic yourself are exponentially increased. I take this opportunity to tell you all that I understand that you dont all have my issues but those of you that do youre not alone. That some days are better thats others and most days life is a miracle, whereas other days you ponder benefit of taking one more breath, one more step, waking up one more time to face one more day. Well never know what pushed some over the edge or what yanked others back from that edge... but sometimes knowing your struggles arent exclusively yours helps give you strength to carry on and move forward. Surrounding you all in love and light and sending prayers for peace and joy in each of your hearts... let it be so♡
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 22:28:54 +0000