Fan needs help: i really need some advice and im sorry but its not mommy related..and its kinda personal so if u could leave my name out i would greatly appreciate it..i have been in the shower scrubbing every part of my body until i am bleeding, i have used a WHOLE bottle of perfume, a WHOLE container of deoderant and i still feel nasty..when i was 11 i was molested by my grandfather, i never told anybody until i was 20..of course everybody in my family except my dad and mom turned against me..i was talking to a friend about it tonight and she said that it would never happen to her child because she has taught them what a good touch and bad touch is..i said well my dad told me that too but it still happend..she said u knew the difference but still let it happen and didnt say anything? well thats YOUR fault that it happend because you knew better..i feel just as nasty as i did when it used to happen to me and i am starting to wonder if it was my fault..i didnt tell anybody because i was scared i was just a little girl..i didnt want to upset anybody especially my grandmother, she didnt derserve to be hurt like that..she didnt believe me anyway when i finally told..i dont know what to think im scrubbing as hard as i can to try and feel clean again but its not happening i think im having anxiety or panic attacks or something because i feel like something heavy is on my chest and im gasping for air..im sorry that i had to come here and vent something like this but as ive said i dont have anybody..PLEASE dont bash me for my spelling, the way im thinking, or anything like that ive been through enough i just need encouragement RPB:❤Crys
Posted on: Fri, 23 Aug 2013 05:40:11 +0000