For every struggle there is a path, no matter how elusive to your sight it may be... just know that it couldnt have happened any other way. We all have struggles and its how we deal with them and get through it that counts. I know that I tend to say a lot and give examples of such through my own experiences, I do so because my struggle is miniscule in comparison to others... theres a lot of people going through things that make them wonder why me. To put things in perspective last night I got drunk to try to mask my crazy life at this time of year, it didnt do anything but make me over sleep for Christmas. On December 20th I was served an eviction notice from my dwelling due to my past of being a drunk and on the 23rd my car started blowing oil and knocking, so I dont have much time. Everything seems to be against me during the holidays but those are just the two main examples of my plight. However, with that said I have decided to continue on with the changes Ive made in my life over the course of the last year and take things a step further to correct my path. I know that moving and getting a new car are the final ties I have to my old life, just as a certain vice thats been present since I was 14. Its time to move on to bigger and better things... I have loved my time living as free as could be but time is running short for me. So its on to new beginnings and making the life I deserve for myself and nobody else. I have lived my life as if you want to be a part of it good and if not then bye Felicia. Outside of my mom and grandfather I really have no blood family, as they so elegantly put it, but have found that those around me are closer than family. Im not complaining but shining light that every single happening is a step or push in the direction you should go. Im using my tribulations as a jumping point and way to progress in my overall goals. I dont know what the future holds but I know that for the first time in my life I dont need a substance to help me... Ive had my eyes opened as of late and realized that I can deal with things as they come in a sober state, its quite humbling and I know that theres a long way to go from here. So heres to the journey and everyone that has had faith in me along the way. I love those around me to no end and know that theyre there if only to listen. Enjoy Christmas and the gifts but remember its not about the gifts but those around you. Some people dont get gifts or have anyone to do for, so appreciate what you have because thats what its about to begin with. 😊
Posted on: Thu, 25 Dec 2014 21:02:12 +0000
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