For some people, New Years Eve can be difficult. It can seem anti-climatic, lonely, and hopeless. If you havent accomplished all youd hoped to. If the year has had grief, loss, pain and failure. If youre not in the loving relationship you spent the past year searching for. All of those things can make happy reveling a depressing prospect. I used to be one of those people who focused on what the prior year didnt afford me, and what it took from me. For solace and escape, Id drink too much, party too hard, laugh too loud, all in an effort to block out the sadness of what appeared to be an empty dark tunnel.. Awareness didnt come until I had children and again years later when I dusted myself off and found a new me. In those processes of renewal, I developed a deep awareness for all I did have, all Id been blessed with; from the simple smiles during any given day, to the major breath-taking moments that are now indelible on my heart. Gradually I became so consumed by gratitude for the greatness in my life, there was no room left for self-pity (ok an occasional pity party, I am only human), no time for focusing on what I didnt have. In that awakening, theres also no space to waste on over-indulging. Now I realize while it might numb the bad for a moment, it also, sadly blocks the good. The good far outweighs the bad, of which I refuse to miss a single moment. Of course Id love a romantic evening shared with the perfect someone, toasting a fresh new year with a passionate kiss. Hopeful romantic that I am, I know, if its meant to be, that day will come; tomorrow, next week, in a few months or at the turn of another year. Its up to God. For now I will focus on and be grateful for all Ive been blessed with; the amazing adventures and opportunities during the year gone by, while happily anticipating all thats yet to be. I will enjoy ringing in the new year with the kid; the youngest of the three never-ending, no comparison, loves of my life that are my sons. Well watch the ball drop in Times Square from our cozy home, indulge in our favorite foods -him a Chipotle burrito, me, bagels and lox with capers. Well clang some pots on the patio and as 2015 quietly begins, Ill look to the heavens and silently say thank you for all thats been, all there is and all thats yet to come. Today, as the song states, it really is just another New Years Eve, another night like all the rest. The difference is the promises held when the clock strikes twelve which are beyond the imagination of the human mind, and that is what I will focus on! Cheers from ever giddy me to all of you, with smiling wishes for a happy, healthy and prosperous 2015; filled with love, life, peace, joys and blessings for us all! :) youtu.be/5AwF5peIRwo
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 20:42:52 +0000
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