For the past two and a half months ive been dealing with a lot of shit. I have become a monster who has hatred in my heart. I have taken shit out on my family/friends who didnt deserve it. Even though My husband Adam McCoy has stuck by my side when he should have really walked out on me, but he cause he loves me no matter what. Ive got two beautiful children who loves me unconditionally no matter what. There are 2 that arent even any kin to me but in my eyes we are blood related. Sandy Rickard Meeker who is my second mother has never once turned her back on me instead she has been here encouraging me when the weight of the world was on my shoulders. To my friend of 13 years Phillip Wayne Willoughby Jr. your my brother from another mother who has never turned your back on me. You sit in court with my hubby half the day seeing if I was coming home or having to stay until the next appearance. Hell there was several times u had to get up and leave the room but u was still right there. Alicia Hallman thank u for putting up with my crying crazy ass who at any mintue would turn from a happy person to someone at times I didnt even know. To a very few more people who stuck with me u are appreciated to. All I know is just because someone gets into some trouble dont mean friends should turn their backs on them. There is one thing I will say though to some of the ones that I thought were my friends: if yall couldnt be around when I needed yall the most than I sure in the hell dont need u around when Im at my best. Im in the bottom of a dark barrel that Im really not sure if I will ever make it to the top and see light again, but least Im trying. Waking up everyday is a struggle for me because I have to face the ones I love and hurt the most. One thing I do know is Im not ashamed of the mistakes Ive made, mistakes are a part of life that every human encounters. Ever human in this world has made mistakes that has hurt their family and friends. One thing that has stuck with me is never let anyone every make u feel so uncomfortable that u never leave your house. Its not worth it believe me I know what it feels like. From this day forward I will be happy no matter what life throws at me. Much love to all my family and friends who has been there and to those who turned their backs on me yall can F**k OFF cause I dont need yall. Goodnigh
Posted on: Tue, 09 Dec 2014 07:08:14 +0000
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