Forever until death do us part! Thats bogus. Feeling alone and abandoned. Why did you do it? I miss you so much! It doesnt get any easier with each day, week, month or year that passes. You left us all too soon. Cant explain why you did what you did. Now Im left with emptiness, heartache and grief. No explanation or reason. The end of the month of October, I wish I could just erase off my calendar. My soulmate left us and my mother left us all. Im sad to say that it doesnt get any easier as time prevails. Im all alone with my wonderful children and their grief and unhappiness too. It is without a doubt, one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. Family, yeah if thats what you want to call it are around whenever convenient. I dont care anymore! My children are innocent have done nothing to deserve the hand that has been dealt to them! Maybe it was my fault in the end. And I take full responsibility for it. Theres not a day that goes by when I dont miss my hubby or my mother. Whos gonna be there to let them know that we loved them and cared about them? Theres no excuses for what my honey did! He chose to take his life. And I cant help but feel Im being blamed for it. So be it. Blame me for it if it makes you feel better but dont hold it against my innocent children. I miss my love and my mother. Theres not a day that goes by that I dont think about them and wish it was me who died instead. So for all who feel sorry for me dont! Just dont let your feelings toward me affects beautiful smart children. They did nothing to deserve what we are going through. Everyone seems to have somebody or someone. Try walking in my shoes and let me know how it feels. Everyone elses lives go on , no struggles. Would it hurt to once in a while just see how my children are doing regardless of your feelings towards me? Maybe it should of been me instead. Not my husband or my mother. Im trying all by myself. It doesnt matter anymore. Gone and forgotten it seems. Out of sight and out mind! Love you honey and will never forget you. Keep shining and maybe one day we will meet again.Say Hi to my mom and pop for us.
Posted on: Wed, 29 Oct 2014 05:47:16 +0000
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