(From Darkness To Seeing Light.). I once lived where there was no - TopicsExpress

(From Darkness To Seeing Light.). I once lived where there was no peace, and I had begun to believe that I was stone crazy. Im unique in the fashion God made me,awkward & short. My many words have been distorted,my verbs have been taken as adjectives. Ive given & wanted nothing in return,Ive burned the cross roads to my past. God told me David was harassed, He asked me are you any better than he? All my focus & concentration takes much effort for me to forget my past. I chase no fame nor fortune, I only look forward towards my 3girls making it past the cross roads where I crashed. Staying trapped in my past kept me reliving its history, it kept me in a blistered state. Living in it & reliving my earthly fathers fate. This is me acknowledging where my mindset was, that it was nothing but the thought of dying. It does have an odor, a spirit form of a human body that looks like you, but isnt you. I could write about how many wrongs that has been done to me, but really that only empowers our greatest enemy. I refuse to help his cause, for he was the cause of why Adam fell from Eden to this prehell. Man has suffered severely ever since. I pledge nothing else for the upliftment of satans evil kingdom, oh how he has man blinded. I can not count how many years he had me trapped believing that I did not need God. God created me, how could I be tricked into believing that? This is no laughing matter, I cry for I know that He (God) is all that matters!!!! I cant make since of why anyone would want any type of pain for anyone else, but living it has made me aware that it does exist. My hope was reborn in me, By God through my youngest baby girl (Mackenzie), oh how He has shown me through her that He loves me dearly. I pray for His & His only covering over her & I thank Him daily for the Joy that lives in her. Heavenly Father never stop working in her and my other three loves of my life (Erica,Ashton& my grandson Stevon aka junnie. This is the after when someone has been reborn, when visibility returns. God has enlightened me to see things that a non spirit lead human wouldnt believe. No this doesnt mean I wont sin anymore for as long I live here there will always be traps from the enemy. What God has told me is to seek Him before I step and He will direct my steps from that point. Most of my sin is my fault because I was a follower, God told me that a leader cannot follow, the result will always end in a catastrophe. At a very young age God would talk to me and I referred to Him as my friend. I was blessed with a mother that yearned for more understanding of Gods word, in my eyes because I was looking with my physical eyesight it looked like God was doing nothing to aid her. It has taken so many life lessons to bring me here where I am right now. I thought I was fighting against oppression, poverty & all the above, but God showed me, He said Eric your fighting against Me. He said I have so much for you than you are allowing Me to show you through the spiritual eyesight that I gave you. Please young men hear this, that silent voice inside of you telling you to open your eyes, Hes God & He is not telling you too open your physical eyes wider. Hes talking about that connection to Him. He loves you, all of you!!!! But God has a special calling on the ones Hes birthed to be leaders. No He doesnt love leaders more than any other human spirit, but Hes hardest on the ones He birthed with the leading gift. It doesnt matter how strong your will is God is the Creator & He knows everything even before we think it. Im not old but Im 42 & for over 20 years Ive tried telling God not now, let me just climb this hurled & then Im ready. All I was doing was getting older spinning my wheels getting nowhere. Sin is nothing to brag about, those that brag dont know who God created them to be. They are just like I was lost, blind & ignoring Gods silent Voice saying open your eyes son I have something for you. This is the most important thing I have ever penned!!!! Many say that theres a knock at the door No, humans knock on doors, God lives in us all, so He doesnt need to knock, He speaks with His silent Voice that you tell yourself thats my mind playing tricks on me. No son it is your Heavenly Father warning you to open your spiritual eyesight to see what He has for you. That Mustard Seed is actually bigger than you think, but you have to see it spiritually to get Gods Understanding.(By Eric Huling)