GREETINGS...i am going to say some things some will like some wont but i have never been one to keep feelings in (my downfall)..i am a loving and caring person i will give to anyone who needs help i have helped alot in my past and some have helped me..i am sorry for those who choose to to know the real me the one who ha a heart who crys who feels and been a witch along time but ever years down the road we have changes and choices to make it is part of life...i over the weekend let my best friend from middle school go i know she was out in the middle of something but she made her choosing i feel bad cause what i did magical for her i have to un do it as she disrespected an used it for her gain and i do not lay that way..i love her and always will but it is time for me to find me and not look for what is not there..i am hurting but i try to hide it as nothing will change ..i am a honest woman and i have so many on her i call friends but few choose me and thats ok not many know me or my life..i live day to day and i know im sick but others are sicker so who am i to cry...im on my path it is just in need of some cleaning and i have started.so as i say im not afraid to be alone i have bee emotionly and mentally for 4 yrs now and nothing will change i will just have to fight it and move on and the past is the past i need to live for the present and future....im sorry libby i wish u well with kim and i hope you feel better soon u deserve much happiness and you wil be ok...i just needed you by my side and well i cant trust you to be there so i had to let go..im sad today crying off and on but im ok i hurt deep inside.im trying to lose weight and be a beautiful woman who ppl will say wow i was before but strokes and all change a way of living it slows u down a bit...i feel like i have to carry everything on th weight of my shoulders as shawn doesnt it is me i struggle but it is making me stronger but my doc thinks im slippin into a depression not sure...i just express here how feel as this is about all i got as far as ppl ...well sorry for rambling but im just very very sad today and one day i wonder if i was gone who would care? notice?it is just me by myself no one i can call to help me but its ok itis part of my journey and im trying hard to walk it i wonder if i just gave up and layed down and died if my pain would go away ? would my broken heart be fixed? i dont know.i wish all a blessed day sorry for my boring letter..over look it as most do and its ok as most dont know me...im connie lynn and i am who i am thats it but im strong but growing weak as well...much love to all..
Posted on: Mon, 16 Sep 2013 14:34:37 +0000
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