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Gangaji - Do we need a teacher? For me it was essential. My teacher said, “Stop! Stop all that doing, just stop. Just be as you are.” And that was profound. My teacher is still alive in me. I’d say he is still my teacher, and he was an extraordinary teacher. He didnt teach a creed and he didn’t teach a practice. He was a free being. I feel blessed to have had a real teacher. In that I didn’t have to be a certain way, and we could disagree. We definitely disagreed politically and in other ways, but I needed him. When I was with him, I started to play out my normal roles, even coming from these profound experiences. I fell in love with my teacher, so at first he was my “Daddy,” and I was trying to be a good little girl. He wasn’t interested. Then I thought, “Oh, I’ll be this beautiful princess in his court,” and he wasn’t interested. Every act of my life came up to be played against him, to be bounced against him. And he just wasn’t interested. Then I was just myself with him. So the relationship itself was necessary for me, maybe because I’d always been able to be in control of relationships, and I wasn’t in control here. I had to surrender. That was very useful for me, because there was a regression that happened. I became very awkward around him, like a nine or a ten-year old, saying inappropriate things. It was something that had to play itself out. Sometimes I was just appalled at how clumsy I was or how stupid I was. But it was held in there, somehow. I didn’t spend that much time with him either: it was six weeks the first time, and a couple of weeks for the next five years, and then I didn’t see him anymore. I knew I didn’t need to see him, but he was still my teacher. He is still my teacher. It’s just a holy relationship for me, and it is a kind of old-fashioned relationship. Maybe people don’t need to have husbands or wives or parents anymore; maybe all of that will be outdated. But for me it was essential, and I really honour it. https://youtube/watch?v=jV2OmJ7W3pY&list=UUgp-73d8_sqzM_5HT9YekfA
Posted on: Thu, 28 Aug 2014 07:34:10 +0000

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