God is speaking. Today has been an easy day for Joshua, but there have been many thoughts rushing through my mind. Joshua rested peacefully today. Hes been having difficulty with a lot of painful gas that makes him start gasping for air. They gave him an x-ray today and saw the gas was below his belly. Thinking it was from his food, they changed it to a premium version that has the same calories but a little less fiber. Hopefully that helps. They also scoped his nasal way this morning. This is the first scope anyone has done without Joshua being sedated. He didnt like it and when he started breathing harder they saw an area before his voice box with a little extra skin that would close in instead of flexing out. Joshua was scheduled for a scope in OR tomorrow where they would look at the scar tissue again and possibly balloon it open again if needed. Now they are thinking about taking a little of the extra skin away. I told them it was a good plan. Its safe, he doesnt need it, and its making it hard to breathe. The scope is planned for 1:21 tomorrow. They crack me up with the precise appointment times, but Im sure there is a good reason. I also started working more with Joshua trying to prepare him for a bottle. He did well before but had clamped shut over the past few weeks. I was able to touch his gums and actually eased his paci in his mouth. I then took his right hand and put it yo his mouth, slowly working it back and forth until he opened and started licking his knuckle. It was awesome. A lot of progress in a short time. A few more times and maybe hell be ready for the bottle. Well see. My new 3 month old buddy Parker went in for a heart cath today. The heart surgeon was watching, saw things he didnt like, and then said they would try to operate tomorrow or Wednesday at the latest. This was all shocking to the family. The Dad had to work far away today and is rushing back to the hospital. The One who wasnt shocked is God. God has a plan for this big boy and we continue to pray for wisdom, protection, skilled hands, and healing for Parker. I had heard about a family from NC who was vacationing and now their daughter was in the hospital. The Dr who was talking to me thought it was me, but was confused since we live in SC. That was all that was said. Today I was delayed in getting to the elevator and when I got there a woman was waiting and crying. We talked for a few minutes. This was the mom of the NC family. I felt like this was an arranged meeting. She unloaded a lot that had taken place. I told her that God cared about her daughter and had plans for her. I said it was no accident that they happened to end up in one of the too hospitals while on vacation. The daughters condition is very severe. The mother was bewildered. Please pray with me for Scarlett. She was actually born in Ohio but recently moved to NC. The family needs the Lord. He is their only hope. There are so many needs around me. And these are only the things I can see with my eyes. How many other more severe needs are walking by me each day? This world is hurting. There is so much anger, bitterness, loss, grief, loneliness, and pain. The world needs to see compassionate Christians who will act like Jesus and not condemn or judge, but instead reach out a hand of love. I have been laying on the bed for about 3 hours just overwhelmed at the needs. I want to help, but how can I? I am an imperfect human with many limitations. I pray long after the tears are gone. Just heaving in pain. I have never felt like this before. I think God is speaking and wanting more compassion in our churches and families. He wants us to do more. Or maybe all of this is just for me. Maybe Im the only one Hes telling to do this. I dont know. Just so many thoughts. And if the little I see concerns me this much, how much more compassion and concern does God have for people? How much more does He ache for those who are lost and struggling? Remember Jesus, when He cried over Jerusalem because of their unbelieving hearts. God cares. God is compassionate. God is good. And one of the facts I love the most... God is present. He is with us. We just have to look to Him. Thank you God for your mercies. They are new every morning. Your faithfulness stretches to the sky. You are The Almighty Creator. And you hear our prayers. Wow! Thank you Lord.
Posted on: Tue, 15 Jul 2014 02:41:04 +0000