Gone A slowly fading song that fades away as it slowly ends leaving a memory the kind that never ends in your mind You can hear it as the wind gently breezes by your ears as if it’s whispering a faint tale about your life. I am lost as my heart screams out as my soul fights for the right to exists outside of this body this shell of mine. What is this life for this isn’t everything you are could it be there is nowhere else to go. Just feels like I loved him more than he ever loved me wishing you had never met but you can’t walk away Calling his name out in the dark of night wishing you could only hear his voice one more time to hear your name. The silence is formed all around me my soul is alone shattered there is nothing more to life when love is dead lost. So I run like I always do I run from everyone I have ever known I have run no longer the story I tell is of silent I wished I would have listened more to you to everyone I ignored it all, when I finally asked for help it was too late. It was too late I crashed to the bottom it was broke to late gone forever before I even knew it. No direction just gone. I was locked up locked away and all I could see was your face it’s what kept me breathing and striving for more. There was a secret door in my mind that just would not let me see the reality of my own life. Knocking so gently but Nothing was heard it was as if I was at the gate waiting for the lock to be broken. It was made of such strong steel. I am captive held like a prisoner of my own mind losing the war as it continues on up down this way and that. Losing all my reasons cause there is nothing more left l am a living picture frame seeing my life as it plays out. I can’t change anything what seemed like lies in one’s eyes was my souls life my stolen childhood screaming out. What is the truth it’s no longer apparent who am I what am I, feeling like I am under attack from myself nothing left The dark never leaves it never gets lighter the spark that you once gave me is just an amber slowing burning out. My tears will never dry only feeling battered inside all the lies you think I told and how they make you despise me. You despise everything inside of me if you only knew how much those things were not as they seemed they ran me. Inside of me they controlled me my heart was still yours, now I walk this path alone watching the one you forgot Wither away dead and forgotten what was once so beautiful is nothing but misery with no peace to be seen. Peace is dead inside my heart my head is filled with a scrambled mess of mixed messages of my own life wisdom. I reach for no pity when will the magic happen when will my soul be set free from the cage it’s in? I don’t sleep at night so many nights awake I have lost count of the time sometimes even the days and even weeks. We were kids who fell in love so deeply there will never be another love like ours was. You will never know how much I LOVED YOU. You can deni me all you want but deep inside of you deep in your heart is where I live it’s where you hide me. What would you do if you could go back to what was never said back and forth I just can’t Handel this confusion? Never wanted to hurt you if I could bring you in my mind and have you understand what you seem to think you do. Showing you but in the end how you could understand no one does…. And you don’t want too. This all might be for the best was it all worth it the walking away the ignorant ways of one’s mind building tension. This is not the person you are but what you have become such a stranger who use to be such a friend. If only you could have taken my hand and offered a squeeze and held on tight but in the end it’s the price I pay.. I was so childish to have lost the magic I once had. You just do not care at all…. You are so far away I need you. I never thought it would hurt this way tell me why just why I took all I can take.. I have fallen pain so intense You will never come back to me I am alone no friends no hope no one just me who am I what am I …. It was not supposed to hurt this way or for this long ………….. For you there is no pain the road goes on and on as if I never was.. Forgotten love withered away beaten and tossed where all the other forgotten trash goes. What was always and forever hand in hand is now always and forever to be forgotten ………….
Posted on: Mon, 08 Jul 2013 05:13:34 +0000
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