Good morning Lord, my prayer this morning is that you quiet my soul. Psalm 42:8 says By day the Lord directs His love, at night His song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life. Since I was a little girl, I can count 9 times out of 10 that if I battle confrontation in the evenings, I can be assured I will war with it all night long. It’s why I passionately make sure my children’s spirits’ are quieted and reassured that I love them before they go to sleep. If words have been thrown, criticisms all around I will lay there in my bed warring in my mind of what I could have done to make things better. My mind will not shut off when I am my own worst critic. Let alone when the ones I love give me a list of things I am doing wrong. My heart hurts for all I want is peace in my home…. I want my children to return to me excited that they had fun for a weekend away at their dads yet grateful to be home. Yet my children return confused, angry and accusatory… Leaving a momma feeling defeated. My mind does not match up with my heart. My Faith counteracted with my fears. My “old” way of thinking due to the garbage of my past screams you will never be good enough. You will always fail… Troubles will always find you. You will never fix this. Yet in the tender mercies of the morning I am comforted in the truth that will set me free. Yes I will always fail, yes I will never be good enough, yes troubles will always find me, and yes most definitely I will never fix the darkness that looms at our door. Yet the beautiful promise is Our God is Good, and that is ENOUGH. He promises us that the truth will be revealed. He promises that yes we will have trouble but that He has overcome the world. And most importantly I am in His eyes good enough. He looks at my heart’s intent, and not the results… I am His precious child, that He rejoices over in singing…. He does not look at the reaction of how my actions of love are received, and He will use all this confusion in my children, all this hurt to better them for His Kingdom. Just like David in the psalms I must praise Him in the darkness of hour. I must focus on the greatness of Him, and pray for strength to quiet my mind. Lord I praise You that in the early morning I find strength in You. Lord help us to realize that when we are tired, and worn from the world at the end of the day we must give it all back to You. You oh Lord defines us. You oh Lord give us our worth. You oh Lord are our biggest fan. Thank you for that graced filled love.
Posted on: Mon, 21 Oct 2013 12:32:16 +0000
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