Healing Cancer on Day at a time Sometimes it’s hard to know what to say. All my life I hav e been the strong one. It was me supporting those hat couldn’t care for themselves, me giving wherever I saw need, and always feeling that it was right and good to do so. But this: being sick from cancer, cold sweats and fevered spells, never enough money to cover expenses, medical bills or even my own place to live. I feel so lost. A room in my sister’s house, second citizen to my own existence. And where are all those good people I helped. Even my own kids who I raised as long as I could, don’t see someone in crisis, but rather cry that I might die, but not see that there is anything they can do to offer help. My youngest daughter came from England and stayed three days last week, she seems to be the only one who understands the condition I am in and what is needed. She and her husband gave $200 to pay to have a door put on the room I have been offered so that I might have some privacy. I am grateful. Stage Three Throat Cancer now spread throughout my lymph system before they identified it. I feel so lost. Living on a disability check that won’t cover near enough, a “guest” in someone else’s home. And blogging my situation to fellow sangha members, friends and Facebook friends, begging for the money it takes to survive, pleading for help. Some of you have helped so much already. Most of the healing equipment I need, nearly $2,000 has been bought beause of your generosity. About another $1,000 is needed plus ongoing daily medical bills and the ongoing daily expenses of not being able to work again until I heal this. For whatever negative karma I have done, for surely the law of Karma, cause and affect is infallible, I am sincerely sorry. I honestly admit all my mistakes. I swear, I shall never again commit negative thoughts, have negative intentions or commit negative actions. Now I pray daily to heal this cancer so that I can go on teaching Dzogchen Buddhism. I believe I am and can heal this cancer, but humbly, I need your help. If you can please help me to afford this life saving equipment, the daily expenses and medicines I need to fight this battle and win. if you can, I pray you will help me. Any amount is useful, $50, $100, $200 or more...as much as you feel comfortable offering. Even $25 will help. You can send me a donation through Paypal to: Robert.Lapham@gmail or through the official Fundrazr site my friends have set up: (See Link Below.) I promise to keep teaching and writing about how to practice Dzogchen Buddhism and will keep everyone updated on my progress as I heal. Thank You with deep gratitude. Robert Lapham October 21st
Posted on: Tue, 22 Oct 2013 00:56:01 +0000