Hey CYG. So i am writing my reflection/confession a day late not because PT called me out on it(which was part of it), but while we were praying today i felt the urge to get back on my drive for God. So with that being said I have a confession to make. Im sorry that ive been missing my reflection posts. The past 2-3weeks I have been really struggling spiritually. I really feel like my passion or fire for God has been dying out and its been really bad and i felt that the holy spirit wasnt as active in CYG and me. I havent been praying or reading the bible as much as i have. I have no desire or motivation to post anything when Saturdays come around. i always think to myself OK, today is my day to write a reflection, but nothing comes to my mind and i use hanging out with church friends as an excuse to not write one and i feel awful. And also lately I have been thinking to myself I dont want to be a teacher anymore(I love my group dont get me wrong).But I always think its too much work, im not even a good teacher, its so tiring, its so time consuming and since i teach pretty much the entire Sunday I am exhausted by the end of the day and makes me not want to do hw/read the bible/pray or whatever. So i just want to say sorry to my group for being a hypocrite. I really felt the holy spirit move once again through CYG and also in me so just Praise God for that!. And also a huge thanks for the Boys bible study group on Friday it really helps me a lot and i love you guys! So, with that I kind of wanted to reflect on PTs sermon today. Only through Sorrow will there be Joy It was so strong and so true. I could name a million times when i endured hardships and it turned into joy, but i can also name a million times when i ran away from my hardships and it just got worse until i repented. And its funny how God works because just yesterday while we were at church Giyong started to share with us how much he has been stressing over his studies/SAT/college/life and that he has been running away from his problems instead of turning to God. We got the chance to pray for him and as PT was talking about enduring hardships instead of running away from them i was reminded about Giyong. I really think that was Gods way of answering our prayers was through PTs sermon. Hebrews 12:7-11 (NIV) 7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his children. For what children are not disciplined by their father? 8 If you are not disciplined—and everyone undergoes discipline—then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all. 9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of spirits and live! 10 They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. And lastly, I wanted to talk about the results of the vote. I was talking about this to my group, but with this vote there is no good for calvary. We are bound to lose people whichever way the vote went. If they voted for the stay of the Senior pastor then those who wanted him to leave will leave the church and vice versa. So i was thinking no matter what we are going to be in sorrow. And as PT said even though you might think this vote doesnt affect us it really does. I was thinking how are the other 8th grade girls going to feel. I really am praying that they arent going to be bitter towards God or bash on him for removing their best friend, but rather think of it as a blessing. I know God will continue to use Joy as a passage way to the kingdom of God wherever she goes. She will be the light wherever the dark is. She will be the salt wherever there is bitterness. She will be the hope wherever doubt is. And she will be the Joy wherever the sadness is. I pray that we will continue to serve God and endure all the hardships and trials to come because for wherever there is sorrow there is joy. Praise God and have a wonderful blessed week!
Posted on: Mon, 06 Oct 2014 04:01:49 +0000
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