Hi my baby girl..well today is 7 months since you left us..7 months my heart left..7 months I cried..7 months I wished too hear you laugh..7 months since my whole world collapsed..as we sat in Perkins last night I held back my tears as that was the place our family gathered 7 months ago, it was in the evening and the sun was shining in the restaurant the same way it did that evening I remembered my tears falling as I tried to eat still in disbelief at what had just happened to us, everyone was quiet as we all sat there in shock, talking quietly and sharing stories of you, I remember hearing those cries and everyone wiping tears like they didnt want to upset me everyone trying to be strong, they sat us right where we sat that evening 7 months ago..before I started my quote I grabbed Shawna ipad, feeling sad, my hand hit the screen and that song Rude came on I immediately start thinking of when we drove Renelle and you too school in the city we driving down Main first thing in the morning in rush hour I of course was getting crabby that song came on you girls start singing happily and waving your fingers too the beat laughing, Joe looked at me and we start laughing at both of you, and it made me smile as that memory came to my mind..everyones been keeping me busy since Im not working, Ive been on the go and its good but I let the house fall behind so I made it a point too clean and get organized all the while I was thinking of our cleaning days, I would tell you ahead of time not too make plans, I would wake you up, crank the music, and we would start, all the while getting into lil arguments, laughing, talking, I dread to wash walls without you, we always had a routine, I would wash the top half of the walls and you would wash the bottom half of the walls, I was thinking of how washing walls never bothered either of us, never argued just got our water and rags and started in no time we would be done, then changing the living room around and dusting would be an argument lol..what used to be so easy to do is now so very hard..even getting up in the morning is sometimes hard I just feel like staring at the ceiling or walls..sometimes Joe doesnt give me the chance, gets me up and out of the house early..i need you so much, and wish for you so much..i was thinking of how we would text each other in the mornings hi mom my reply hi daughter it was just natural for us..you are my best friend and I miss you dearly..thank you for sending me signs and watching over Joe and I..love you dearly and miss you with all my heart my sweetheart!!
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 15:02:29 +0000
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