Hie say the "Sommerloch" (Summer-hole, the days of "everyone in vacation"). Useless to be a cunt in hell, sensefull to be ridiculously lucky. The obscene zombified idiocracy around me presents lifes hollow, you can find capable people, fame and fortune everywhere but here. Thantalos- & Sysiphos, chanceless work and effort to reach successes and lifes sweat sides. Rolling a rock uphill a mountain and beeing mocked with phatamorganas, lowering your head to drink out of a pool of wine our rising it to eat from grapes growing ight before your nose they vanish. The only hope is the sureality of my situation, i should call it consistent concious instead of a such reality i wish for... or better: more than suspicious morbid bad luck turning to good. Outside silent flashs, hoping the bad karma haunting me at leasts let´s what left of wellfare-check appear on my account mondays, since living from 50€ is as impossible as the clerc laughed, i cant pay the rent for my flat, can be glad if i can ripp the money to survive. Meanwhilst the accident-producing zombies will make life an anti-bliss. Great, the last days in "forced ascesis" i grew an anger simply letting me ignore people... turning out zapping punchlines and flaming folks mercylessly stylefull. Doubt me, deny me: die off naivity. Since 2002´s post traumatic shitty shizn´thangy i lived hell, insane perceptions, idiotic prescriptions... which turned out into 9 sideeffects which in two cases nearly killed me. In one of those showed opacums entry... no i didn´t see no white light. I only lifed a short time of my life with less problems than close to anyone around, gave a lot in that time, how my fall was caused ended in a trauma, those having caused it suffered to have too. As i gave them the chance (as i, haha) turned back to the same errors. Today i see my surrounding taking care someone the "accidentaly" poisoned into disability will be frozen to death under some bridge before able to see a laywer, court, human rights and fair compensation. The sad lection: In need we start cannibalizing each other, the stronger do anything using their positions without any regard for others lifes. At least in a sureal hell, and even there hints of humility exists. Else i had been starved to death allready. Shit happens, im confronted with people who call themselfe suffering from alzheimer, yet as a sad joke on sapience are unbeliefable controllfreaks. Far above average stubbornness, far from human... as if posessed and blinded by morbid demons, turning people into carricatures of themselfes. In hell philosophers preach seöf-hate, you see doctors fail you and morals epically, someone leading a megacons international finances unable to add 140 +2. Exactly that sureality, "anything is possible" is the mentioned hope left... as i started to harvest applaus for flaming people creativly... maybe i will simply direspect time itselfe.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Jul 2013 00:39:16 +0000
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