I am so deeply touched by the love and support of not only the amazing IG community, but also my many non IG Facebook friends. This is really the first chance Ive had to thank everyone. My girl Lexi.....my heart breaks for her....such a healthy and young dog at only 8 years old, so sweet, so loving. When the fire broke out in my house, all I could do was grab dogs and throw them in my car, which was parked in the garage. I have two door leading to the garage, one from a hall way, and one from my laundry room, which as always been the safe room for the dogs. The last dog I was able to get out of the house was Deja, who I saw run behind a couch....if I hadnt have seen this, I would have lost her as well. But Lexi....she did just as she should have....whe did not hide, but went to the laundry room...her safe area. I, on the other hand looked everywhere but the laundry room....thinking she must be hiding. Looking in the laundry room never crossed my mind......why, I dont know...and its this fact that haunts me all during the day...knowing I was only feet away from my baby girl, and never looked in the most obvious place.....I had time to look, but looked in dog beds all over the house instead...and every time I ran to my car with another dog, I ran out the hallway door into the garage, instead of the laundry room door. If only I had gone through that door one time...I would have saved her as well....and because of that fact is the reason she died. She was still alive with they found her and took her to a waiting ambulance. A police officer would not let me follow....and because of this, I have filed a formal complaint with the Palm Beach County Sheriffs Office against this officer, who had no right to keep me from my Lexi. I was on a public sidewalk and he threatened to arrest me, blocking me from moving. It wasnt until my neighbor come over.....an officer with the Sheriff Canine Unit, that this SOB let me go.....but it was too late...Lexi had already died. I took her body with me......gave her a bath as she always hated to be dirty....my poor girl. Its just been so difficult, knowing I let her down. Every day, I get up and have to go into the shell of our home and take things out...crying as I go into the laundry room...where my baby girl went to be safe. I seem to be ok one minute, then start to cry the next....as Im doing now. This could have all been avoided if our brand new fire extinguisher had worked. The fire was caused from an over heated battery charger. My other dogs are doing better as each day goes by. As any IG owner knows, if you even move their food bowl to a new spot...they get confused and may not eat...such creatures of habit. I am starting to see normal play behavior again. Karma, who was Lexis littermate...seems the most withdrawn. They were always together. My Vet has given me meds to up her appetite and it has worked great. Joe, my husband, who was in the hospital for smoke inhalation, is doing better as well. The insurance company is moving fast to get the replacement cost of our home down....we plan on rebuilding. I am again, so touched and overwhelmed by all your love and support.....I do read the comments, but only a few at a time....the wound of loosing my beloved Lexi is sometimes just to difficult to deal with. I dont know how this pain will every go away.....the guilt....if only, if only....why didnt I go into that laundry room....the room that they had always known as pups to be their room....I just can understand why. I will check in again when I can....my days are full of trying to sort, clean, pack...whats needed, what goes into storage. But the dogs are my number one priority.....and will always be. Love to you all
Posted on: Tue, 05 Aug 2014 01:00:19 +0000