I could never see myself working in an office from 9 to 5, working in a cubicle, or working in any confined space. I dont think that those career paths are beneath me, nor do I try to make assumptions about the lives of people who follow those career paths. But I do know that the thought of working to maintain terrifies me. I know how easily one can get wrapped up in working to pay bills and that terrifies me. Ive had conversations with people who have given up on their dreams and, at the same time, Ive been encouraged by many to chase money and give up on my own. On the contrary, I feel so blessed to know that God has revealed my purpose to me, and I know that my career will be one that will serve him and his people. Lately, circumstances have had me in a frenzy. The good thing is this… I know that setbacks are set-ups for something much greater and I truly believe that this is key for my experience. I’ve spent so much time treating my gift as a hobby when I know that it is necessary for me to serve my purpose on this earth. Being a full-time artist is scary. It is also really hard on your confidence when you understand that art is NECESSARY & others don’t. How do you eradicate that? My quest to rebuild myself and my approach to art encompasses 1. Being afraid, 2. Exploring why I am afraid and what I am afraid of, and 3. Eliminating my fears and stepping out on faith. Fear is natural, living in fear is not. If I haven’t learned anything else in the past 6 months, it is that my faith in my creator needs to be stronger. I’ve asked God so many questions and many of the answers are the same. If I am faithful to him, I am essentially faithful to myself. With that being said, I refuse to do anything career-wise that doesnt fulfill my purpose. And I wont worry about what bad can come with that. When youre a goddess in training (S/O to my sis Robin Danielle Bobo), anything is achievable. I am soooooooo thankful for the people in my life that BELIEVE in me and TRULY support me and my craft. I am equally thankful for the people who do not. All of you motivate me to keep pushing! I love my brother Wesley Frazier-Keys and I could write an entirely new independent study about how God has used to him to change my life COMPLETELY. I love Antwan Chambers and am forever grateful for how supportive and patient he has been throughout this transition into a new life. I love Paris Marie Bradshaw for being SO kind-hearted and selfless, and for her company that has been refreshing and uplifting during this transformative process. And I love all of you, too. I am grateful for those who read this long ass facebook post. I am grateful for the video shares, those who have read “Jezephied” (THAT MEANS SOOO MUCH TO ME YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND) , those who have watched me grow and are watching my growth continue, those who encourage me, those who PRAY FOR ME (WOO!), those who reassure me that I am not CRAZY and that I am not ALONE, and everyone who shows their support without me knowing. I think of all of you during these reflective moments and remember how blessed I am. Sometimes we forget!
Posted on: Thu, 11 Sep 2014 18:13:18 +0000