I dont understand...I love my family very much...there pretty much all ive ever had.....but the only person that I think about constantly and the only person I truly miss is shaina. dont get me wrong I miss my family...but I dont think about them hardly ever. shaina is everything to me....always on my mind...shes the only one I ever call. shes pretty much the only person I keep in contact with....I Skype my dad here and there but she is the only person I go out of my way to talk to.....I just hate being away from her.....why is it that when I finally found someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with, I ran away. not two years into our relationship I threw this curve ball and joined the military.... I didnt even hardly talk to her about it first... I guess im just sorry that I selfishly made this life changing decision. and im sorry that I cant be home anymore.... I dont want anyone to worry about me. I like it so far... this place really is great....the people are nice too.... im fine...its just sometimes I feel this way at night time when I have time to reflect on my life...and the decisions I have made....anyway ill be okay in the morning. I love you and miss you shaina ....just 4 and a half more years.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:32:39 +0000