I dug this up from Starseeds.net Needless to say it is when I really began to open my eyes. Since I was in middle school I have always had a different perspective on things. Ever since I can remember, Ive always had this force within myself to shy away from things disengaging me, that would hinder most. I tend to let general expectations of society escape my daily motives. Ive never understood the human race, & their mere intentions for a life. As I grew up, feeling & being this way somewhat winded me into a lifestyle that solely depended on that moment or wherever my soul felt like it needed to be. Ive always felt like a magnet in the physical sense, I constantly get pulled and sucked in to and from, & usually have very intense experiences with people. I play the nurturer rather I really want to or not. There is no stopping this ability within me. Throughout all the beauty & understanding Ive integrated in others lives.., these experiences still resulted in much negative rage & bitterness, which eventually lead me to lose my identity entirely, I had been in limbo & falsified static for about 3 years, until now. While writing this, it may be slightly difficult to refrain from sounding egotistical or holy, so I apologize. I assure you thats not the case at all. This is all going to be really difficult to write as well, because so much has happened in my life up to this point,& my memory has shifted along with myself.,, Ive always had a strong intuition about myself, where I am headed and those around me. Throughout my life I have had to deal with drastic energy changes, & what seems to be loose decision making, or sudden decisions that always (from other peoples eyes) may have been viewed as flippant or completely random. Despite what people may have thought, though I have always got up, packed, and moved away - because I wanted to, because I needed to. At the end of each trial, each relationship & journey - I had never felt so drained, or relapsed. People always need me for something, usually to feel loved or better understand themselves. Ive been put through a lot of damage dealing with peoples situations, & it is never meant to actually be that way when it starts, because those who have come & gone have also taught me a lot about myself, & opened my eyes to a new world each and every time. I had so much trouble finding a balance for myself with the longest time, or totally taking control of my own life because these relationships seemed to be a catalyst to all of my downfalls. I NOW REALIZE, that I am primarily an empath and that I am an entire different being stuck in a human form. I questioned myself for so long why did this happen to me? why is everything changing constantly for me? or why does it seem that people always go through their most extreme life changes when I am in their life & make life altering decisions?? I know why now, and I know the truth about this world and our place in the universe, and what role I play. I now understand fully why I was never reluctant to share my love & knowledge, even though if it at the time meant that something of mine would have to be sacrificed, & why this never really bothered me and brought me back to myself more than anything else ever could. Its always put me in a sweet disposition, I always leave, I always start all over - but people are always going to need my guidance. This awakening within me is going on, still. I am constantly detached or in the reality I create & can control. I have always had a heavy pull towards the stars and celestial bodies, & expressed this through art, clothing, decoratives, tats etc. My symptoms are becoming more intense each and every awakening day. Its the light that is showing me the way, its pulling me in. My chest feels like it is going to explode 99.9 percent of the time. I just moved back to OH & everyone has made a drastic life changing decision after confiding in me (& now I am staying here), mostly my friends & my own mother (her and I have never, ever had a relationship till now). I have constant buzzing in my ears. I have been astral projecting, I feel like I am floating, & my visuals are intense..usually a lot of flashing and faces in everything I see. I also will be thinking about something, anything - a song, tv show, idea..and later on in the day it will show itself through something...Im in sync, in control, and my intuition is moving faster than I can keep grips on. Besides all of this, Ive realized all my wrongs, & spiritual abilities in my mind.. & I feel like I can do anything now. I am breaking away from everything that has ever held me back and taking life into my own two hands. To live in solitude, walk my spiritual path & move to a higher intelligence - dimension..., and to speak love & knowledge is all I want before this new evolution takes place and the DNA upgrades we are all experiencing. I have never realized so much all at once, & constantly feeling like I am going to explode. I am always entranced. Ive never been so happy with absolutely no worries. All my life events MAKE SENSE. The coincidences, the pain, my quirks - my dissociative patterns. All makes sense. When will I find my star family? my guide? Are these visuals going to continue to chase me? 444 & 222? Why does it feel like Im not here anymore - Im just waiting. Im completely pure, and the world is in my hands.. I need insight on what is going on with me :3
Posted on: Mon, 03 Feb 2014 05:25:54 +0000
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