I feel so empty inside, like a black whole has covered my heart and wont go away. im scared for my life and my daughters. what am I going to do? I have nothing... a lot of people I thought were my friends have told someone I care about a bunch of shit and now its gone to the point were I feels like have no friends at all it looks like a need to find better friends who I can trust and arnt going to talk crap about me behind my back. now that thins whole thing is going on with my life I dont think I can take much more I feels like I need to do something but I know even if I try nothing will change!!! im hurt beyond and belief. my daughter means so much to me and I know I can be there for her but right now I feel like im not the best for her... my life is going byebye. I dont want to leave my life as one empty back whole their has to be another way to get threw this, but how? yes im 20 years of age but come on I am a human being no if and or buts about it, I know I have a daughter to take care of but as I was going up I never really listened to anyone I always wanted to do t hings my way and I guess from me doing that I never learned how to take responsibility for things. yes im good and some things but not all of them. im trying to get better and I know I can I just need time to do it is all. but I then again I dont have time to think about it I just need to do it!!!! if u have or are reading this, I thankyou for taking time to read this I really do. :) I need help!! like I said my heart and body is just like a black whole that is never going to leave because of all thats going on. I dont want to lose my little Nala bear and I dont want to leave someone behind that I care about too...
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 18:24:25 +0000