I got a lot of thoughts on my mind tonight. if this offends you oh well I dont care anymore. want be the first time you walked out of my life. I can promise you this will be the last time. as a kid my life was heck. Ive been through a lot since you been out of my life. my mother had to be my father and mother. she worked 3 jobs to support all three of us kids because you couldnt be a dad. Ive had several operations on me. almost died on two of them. the only thing I wanted there was my father but you know what?? he couldnt be there because his addictions where more important then his son laying in the hospital. I have tried so hard to be a good son to you and you couldnt be a good father to me. the only time you want anything to do with me is when you want or need something. you dont even call me to ask about your grandkids I have to call you and let you know how they are doing. My kids are not going to see there papaw drink himself to death like I had to as a kid. you swore to me that you would quit everything so you could be a better father but guess what??? you failed like usual. im done trying to have a relationship with you. you want to know what hurt me the most??? after all these years of not seeing you or even getting a call from you once I started talking to you 2 years ago you didnt even ask me how i was doing or even have the nerve to apologize for not talking to me or even trying to make the attempt to. you treat everyone around you like crap because of your habits. no one wants to be around you because your mouth and attitude. I dont know what is going on with you anymore. yes we all understand you lost your dad and that sucks but you know what?? i lost my granny which was like a mom to me in 09 and i had to move on.. life does go on you cant just turn into a selfish idiot. life is so short to act like you are. you have three beautiful grandkids that love you so much. no they dont come around you because you said f them and your kids. trust me no one said its easy to quit drinking or whatever but when you have someone that is willing to help you every step of the way then you take that and get help. you are taking life for granted so why would you continue doing what you are doing. your going to lose everything and everyone around you because you dont care. so why not live life to the fullest and enjoy everyday you can with the people who love you instead of drinking your life away. if it wasnt for you being with Jackie you wouldnt have nothing to do with me. so you need to be thanking Jackie for bringing us back together after all these years. now back to the point about your dad dying and it affecting you. im sure it did. here is one little example of how you cant just give up and quit living. that is, your mother my mamaw has not given up on this family or you boys. she is the one that is suffering deeply also but she knows she has to stay strong for this family just like papaw was the rock to this family and mamaw. another thing how do you think on top of everything she is going through how bad do you think it is for her to see one of her kids acting like this you know it has to break her heart.
Posted on: Thu, 04 Sep 2014 04:29:32 +0000
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