I have been in Indonisia for a week now.. and the landscape and beauty of the people and culture have been amazing.. Although many are wondering why i am not smiling enough in my photos.. If I can be honest.. it is because i am sad .. my heart is very sad .. i know many dont wanna hear that .. and many can prolly relate .. i know i should stay positive and all ... but i feel i need to be honest with myself too. for my personal healing .. the feeling i feel is I feel Lonely .. I can understand why Robin Williams did what he did .. not that i want to take my life but i feel everyday can be my last .. i have devoted my life work to working for god and for all creation to be the light .. i have many great accomplishments .. and great blessing ,to many to type right now ...I have been Wildspirit for a long time.. I have lived in Sedona Az for 22 years and walking the earth ..i have been doing gods good works.. i living humbly and in the good way .. my integrity is good and in the clear.. i know my heart only has good intentions ..I have built numerous communities.. focalized gatherings. had families, started the Warriors of the Light a free kitchen . .etc.. stayed true to the path.. when many have strayed.. i have fulfilled prophecies.. I am a tall light . a pillar of love.. i need to stay strong to carry on the good path as an initiate of celestial light ..i have been there for many many people.. for a long time .. only to have it all stolen..and by the people i once helped and loved.. my tribe ,, my family , my children taken from me .. they dont even know there father and ther mothers dont care.. all i ever wanted is a family .. and miss them soo much .. my happiness is fading .. and i am worried babylon is getting to me .. I spent past two years and everything i had to built a honey hard candy buisness to provide for my kids. was in negotiations to sell.. i took on a partner who ended up being a Dark Dragon, con Artist.. nothing she said was true.. her name.. her credentials.. she didnt have the money she says she had to invest in my company.. tricked me outa of percentage of me buisness.. in two months she destroyed my buisnesses.. and my healing center. Wrote a false report about me on ripoffreportcom while she stole my identity and drained my account. everything i do i do for my children. now they have to see that about there father. everytime they get online..or want to find me :( I know many of you dont care.. because it hasnt happend to you ..yet . even my community in Sedona who are supposed to be spiritual minded people ,, have stolen the light from me, and ruined my identity and my life work .. even now .. i am on the other side of the planet .. with no money to survive.. because i trusted a friend.. .who doesnt care.. people only care about there delusions. and themselfs.. that is what i am finding out.. i use to think god is inside people.. is good to trust people are good .. but i would have never done the things people have done to me .. someone told me recent that robbery isnt personal .. and i agree .. i can see that ,, for me it isnt always about money.. to me people are worth more than silver and gold. but from what i am noticing of people out there don t see it that way .. I dont like to be bitter.. world is loosing a great Warrior of the Light.. i am loosing hope in people and faith in humanity .. I am and always have been a true Rainbow Warrior .. Yet my heart is growing weary and ..I am tired .. nobody cares . that is how i feel .. I could go on ,but whats the use .. yeah i am sad and i want to stop feeling this way .. i have heard it all .. dont need to be told how wrong i am .. this is just the way i feel ..Does anybody out there here me ? ..
Posted on: Fri, 05 Sep 2014 21:53:00 +0000
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