I have been thinking about the blessings in my life this week. Just a few years ago in Phx,AZ, I lived in a nice 3 bedroom/2 bath home with a large yard and lots of stuff with my loving husband, we also had a green eco business going and I worked part time in social services. Today all of that is gone. So where are the blessings? We decided to move to the Great Lake Erie area in Ohio and downsized a bit to tiny cottages and cabins on the lake, we both loved it there. He said everywhere he looked was like a picture postcard. Sadly he became very ill and passed away not to long after we moved there.He died ten hours before his life insurance went into effect and I lost my job two weeks after he died, then the medical bills arrived and I was broke and destitute, we used what we had to move from AZ to Ohio then the rest went to pay bills while he could not work and then pay medical bills.I moved into the very same apartment I had lived in at 17 when my eldest son was born, in 1974, in 40 years life had literally come full circle. So, there I was in Ohio on the lake which I loved with no job , a widow and no money. I started applying to graduate schools all over the world at 50something years of age.I was accepted into the University of Edinburgh, a highly esteemed ancient university for a MSC degree. I almost did not get to come due to Visa issues from an FBI file that was created when I was arrested with the Occupy movement in Phoenix 2011. After much political and legal wrangling, I packed everything I owned into storage and was off to Scotland. I have spent the last year working on my degree in Environment,Culture and Society and spent a year in research of Scottish Independence,Constitutions and the Environment. I finished my dissertation about a month ago. Today they lost that vote by 200k votes. very sad and disappointed by that outcome, I had great hope.So, where are the blessings? I went from happily married living in a nice home in Phoenix,AZ with a business of our own to living in a wee cottage and cabin on the Great Lake Erie, to coming to Scotland and living in a university studio flat, to house sitting in friends homes for the last month or so to my move today to a room with a bath in a BnB and next to no material possessions, no husband, no real job, no money and huge debt. so where are the blessings? When it seems I have lost all, everything I had in the last few years? I am blessed to have been able to come to Scotland to live, it is a wonderful place, with wonderful people. I am blessed to have been able to attend one of the best universities in the world. I am blessed so very much to have been an active and present participant and supporter of the Scottish quest for Independence. I now live in a room in a BNB by the sea in Scotland, many people pay big money to visit Scotland and stay by the sea. I live here very cheaply. So the experience that many pay to visit temporarily, I am able to live. I participated in a huge historical event that many will never see in their lifetime. All of these are blessings, should I chose to see it that way or I could see it as I have lost all and have nothing, when many my age are financially secure, comfortable for the foreseeable future, are happily married and thinking or living their retirement, I am wondering how I will manage food and shelter.My life has been far from typical, but I am not a typical kind of person. That is also a blessing, and whatever the future holds, I am certain it is likely to be quite an adventure although at times it does look like the light of a train at the end of the tunnel, it always seems to work out just fine and in that I am truly blessed and grateful. One Day at a Time for over 17 years.
Posted on: Fri, 19 Sep 2014 17:34:58 +0000
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