I have spent 53 years struggling to define myself, my beliefs, my likes, my dislikes, my direction, and my future. All of this has been a very complicated and time consuming undertaking. In the process I’ve placed all that I see into a right or wrong box, I’ve defended my position, and have been on a constant quest to prove myself right by making other’s wrong. At the end of it all I am left with what the world would call “my personality.” It never seems something constant or certain as it shifts in different directions on any given day. As I deepen my study into ACIM I find that I no longer have to keep asking and answering the question of “Who am I.” I am simply “as God created me” and nothing more. “A concept of the self is meaningless, for no one here can see what it is for and therefore cannot picture what it is. Yet is all learning which the world directs begun and ended with the single aim of teaching you this concept of yourself, that you will choose to follow this worlds laws and never seek to go beyond its roads nor realize the way you see yourself. Now must the Holy Spirit find a way to help you see this concept of the self must be undone if any peace of mind is to be given you. Nor can it be unlearned except by lessons aimed to teach that you are something else. For otherwise you would be asked to make exchange of what you now believe for total loss of self, and greater terror would arise in you.” OrEd.Tx.31.V, 50 The ego deeply values my personality and has invested much into it. It tries to convince me that by doing just a bit more tweaking and shaping that I can finally arrive at a personality that I will be at peace with. It’s like the old expression, “how do you get yourself out of a hole? Simply stop digging.” Laying down the shovel means giving up this crazy circular personality quest. Instead of searching for “my personality” I should simply sink into the impersonality of being a Son of God. My only job is extending God’s Kingdom through extending His love to all. “Personality is man as he appears, that is, his habits, his beliefs, his thoughts, his grammar, his clothes, etc. Impersonality is a man as he is. Truth is impersonal and man is like Truth; man is therefore impersonal.” Lillian DeWaters – 1927
Posted on: Sat, 22 Mar 2014 13:42:53 +0000
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