I just wanted share an email I received not long after posting my suicide Dos and Donts in response to Robin Williams suicide. My hope was/is to arm people with tools to talk/listen if they are worried about a friend or loved one who they suspect has depression. It has always been my belief that the reason we dont engage in these types of conversations is because we are worried well say the wrong thing and there maybe a tragic ending as a consequence. This brave mother is the reason The Key to Life Charitable Trust does what does. Names an locations have been changed to protect the innocent. Enjoy ❤️ Hi Mike I just read your post so thank you I will let my son read it later. I just found out about RW about 10mins ago and you know this was nearly my last night. I am 38 years old a mother of 6 children. My eldest is 22 and because of how much I have crammed into my life last night it just all caught up with me. I went for a walk. I left my teens at home with my tots and walked the streets of town with the intentions of going to river and ending what at the time I thought was a burden of a life to those around me.... For some reason I went and bought some ciggys (which was a habit I had nearly kicked) and then proceded to the river...... I then thought we were nearly out of milk and the little fulla might need some milk in the night so I turned around went to our supermarket and then dropped the milk off still with the thoughts of they should be fine until morning I then sat on our deck step and had another ciggy. My 16yr old came and sat beside me and said Mum r u ok? (this boy NEVER comes near me when im smoking and I never go on night walks!) I nodded my head because I thought if I cried in front of him it may just give the game away....... This boy said Mum I got something to tell you and I want to keep it secret for now but I got a call when you went for a walk and its just the trials...... Ive been selected for trials for the under 17s reps LEAGUE team Straight away all I could do was cry, my boy put his arms around me and said Mum its only the trials but im gonna give it everything I got! Bloody hell what a dick I felt like, he asked why I was crying still giving me a cuddle and I told him how I was feeling that I thought before he told me that, that I believed they would be more successful and focused and happy without me. Ive stuggled to feed them, pay bills and rugby union costs (because he plays ruggas lol) not league at school.... Anyway since my husband left, blah blah blah, I dont really want to get into it and believe now that will be sorted when the timing is right... Back to my son and the suggestions you told others... Thank you it was perfectly worded and I want to let My boy read it when he gets home from practice tonight because he did exactly what you suggested. I still dont know why his selection made an instant change in the way I felt but I do know this kid is my best buddy as I am his and I just I wanted to share in private that wee story. Im safe and I will be ok, Im not feeling like taking my own life anymore, and that is because this boy made me feel like someone does care about me , oh shit tears now but happy ones, gotta go as the keyboard might short circuit lol....take care and thanks again, wise words..... In case you are wondering I asked for permission before I posted. Have a great weekend everyone ❤️❤️❤️
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 06:52:45 +0000