I know for the last 7 years Ive stop going to church and opening up to the Lord but I just have so much anger and hurt inside of me and being me I hate talking about it and showing it ! Many tell me to forgive those people who have hurt me but I try to find peace for my self cause I refuse to live in hurt and anger and I hide it but nobody will understand ! I have family that says they understand but do they fell my hurt ? My sadness ? My anger? When I go to church I see how people just let go and let The Lord in and they seem so calm and at peace and when I try too I just want to cry and let it go but I hold everything in cause I dont want to cry Im tired of crying for shit that happen 7 years ago! But I know I need to cause its not good to hold grudges for so long! Ive been through some shit in life and only a handful know what it is ... But I only want to feel at peace with me with my life and not be angry anymore ! I just wish I wasnt so dam stubborn .. But it pisses me off to actually feel the anger in my heart to know its hurting me .. I wish god can speak to me and tell me its time to let it go
Posted on: Fri, 18 Jul 2014 04:56:04 +0000
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