I left the movie theater 25 minutes ago watching this film based on a true story of two Mormon missionaries captured and held ransom in Russia. It was after I left the theater and was heading home, partly thinking of the character in the film, one of the kidnappers, Nicolai, that something in me manifest out. I began to sob. I feel to beg God his forgiveness for me greed, my selfishness. In my soul, I grieve at all who suffer around me, yet I notice them not and Im blind, unaware, and serve not my fellow man. All this while driving in a car with beautiful music playing through the speakers, fuel in the tank, a comfy interior and smooth suspension, a warm heater. I had to look up the scripture that now cycles through my mind, and I weep. Oh, all those children, the fatherless, bereft of hope. The widow. What do I do for them? Nothing! I notice them not. Maybe, with some powerful grace from God I will cease my self absorption and selfishness, and take courage as some do, to begin to offer a daily morning prayer for God to lead me to inspiration yoke that person or persons I might be able to help or serve in the course of the day. Poor, poor, Nicolai, and others. I notice them not. Im grieved over my shallow and selfish life that yields so very little for the orphan, the fatherless and the widow. Somehow my heart feels broken for such right now and Im doing nothing to assist or bless all those who I notice not, be they in need of clothing, warmth, a kindly smile, a voice of encouragement, a listening ear, money, food, a friend, shelter, transportation, care in any form. Why do ye adorn yourselves with that which hath no life, and yet suffer the hungry, and the needy, and the naked, and the sick and the afflicted to pass by you, and notice them not? (Mormon 8:39). Perhaps before sleep falls upon me this night I may get real in prayer with God and ask he help preserve with me how I feel right now in this moment, that I may have courage to pray prayers that will indeed be frightening to pray---for my life might be severely inconvenienced in its routine should I sincerely pray to find others in need who otherwise I do not notice as I hurry about in a vain and foolish rat race living here in Babylon. I dont know why all the emotion. It wasnt triggered in course of viewing the movie, but came powerfully afterward. imdb/title/tt2887322/
Posted on: Wed, 22 Jan 2014 07:41:38 +0000
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