I not only found GOD i found myself and tonight as i prayed to not just be completely healed with the medical problems and health issues i ve been suffering from i prayed about others that are going through this kinda stuff too . I know how it is to feel hopeless and like the world has closed in all around you and your standing alone . I know how it feels to be in pain and hurt and feel so lost and left out . The feeling that everything you do is nt working and to try to do anything to save yourself and want to feel safe from harm and i know what its like to feel lije giving up i tried that too and i know how it is to want it sl m back and call on GOD and get what you wanted and then feel like a sinner or hypocrite and turn your back away from god again . I ve been there and felt the shame for my sins and mistakes . I ve felt the jealousy over someone so bad that any and all i could do seemed like a challenge to gsin their love . I know how ut feels to have bad things said or to say bad things outta hurt to others . I kniw what its like to feel i ve failed everyone and God . I know that feeling . I ve been there . I ve lusted for ones love by using others to create jealousy but thats all sin and not the lice i really wanted . I know im wrong fir neglecting GOD AND THOSE I LOVE AND I VE BEEN SUCH A FOOL . I KNOW HOW IT IS TO FORGET WHO I WAS AND WANT TO HIDE FROM God when i should ve trusted him . I know how it us to lise trust and faith and e en my soul and heart . I know depression and medicine reactions that only make things worse in life and how they can work against you . I ve been there too. I know how it is to love someone so much and not live myself or God And i know how your mi d can be blind and rumors and gossip can destroy you inside . But i also know that God only puts on us what he kniws we can handle and even when we cant he has those around us to help us handle it and share the burden but the devil works hard on all those things and he destroys all if he can but when your on rock bottom and totally alone and so list God s still there and hes still fighting your battle and like me i myself was standing in his way until i turned it all over to him . Let me tell ya whats hes done . 1st he saved my life then hes been working on my friends and family as j witness to them hes put a purpose back in my life and hes gave me not only my faith back but my willpower . Hes washed me clean . I had all my burdens laid out and down in front of me and he just washed it all away after not just 7 years of it but all 43 years of my lifes worth . He made me who i am and he put me here to do his work and his will and i see that now . I ve learned to trust him again and believe in his awesome and merciful touch as hes been healing me . It was nt me or anyone else that knew when he was going to do this in my life it was in his time on his time and he has given me so much im thankful for that i once thought was so against me . I ve got alot to pray for still but its Gods will and those im praying for to accept him and understand he has it all in his plans to let us come to him and to luve for him . I had been a sinner and i ve been convicted and judged and persecuted i have been there but niw thank you God im here and im working for you lord . Any and all things is your will and at your mercy i m so glad i ve opened my eyes and im seeing how much God has loved me and has waited on me to be ready for him to lead my life like he is doing . I said and did so many silly and crazy things and hurtful things that i kniw was jyst the devil wanting me to test trust and faith and to try and ruin ne but im getting my health back and im being heaked and im ficused on what i once was 7 years ago . Being his servant and living his life not for me but for him . GOD ..... I VE WALKED THROUGH THAT VALLY OF FIRE AND BRIMSTONE AND I HAVE SEEN SATAN DO HIS WORK BUT I GOT SAVED AND PUT BACK TO WHERE I BELONG . . Thank God and everyone that beleived in me and knew it was all in his tine to save me . Nobody elses but his .if Gods not in your life then all i can say is open your eyes before you let the devil close them for good . Love one another and trust God 1st and he will lead you toward him and all those you love and witness to will follow . Never give up . He put you there because he wanted ylu there and the devil was there to steal your alk and everything hiwever he could . If anything stop and pray to him and trust Him hes got all the answers and has yoyr back through everything . . The only one that can ask to save you us you and the only one that can do it is God
Posted on: Fri, 09 Jan 2015 07:36:08 +0000
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